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Darkness

Unknown userMember23 Apr 2020, 7:03 pm AEST

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Unknown userMember05 Dec 2020, 11:09 am AEDT

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So, the smile on my face and the warm in my heart at just seeing your name, gives me hope that I am not dead inside. Love you so very much Mel. @Lee82

@Zoe7 , I know you have a lot of work to do but I hope there is some you time in today for you.

@Emelia8 , You are to kind my special friend. Kimmy said hello amd that she misses her Em

@Anastasia , @Shaz51 , @Maggie , @Owlunar @MDT @frog @Snowie @Faith-and-Hope @Sans911 sending every kind thoughts and hoping their weekend is ok

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor05 Dec 2020, 11:13 am AEDT

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I looked up words starting with Z and found this 🙂

Hugs and hugs to both of you xox

@Emelia8 @Zoe7

Haha zootrophic is not one I have heard of but it did make me think of gorgeous Cat and Tobes Zoe 🐈🐕

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MDTSenior Contributor05 Dec 2020, 11:25 am AEDT

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Hi @Former-Member
Good to see you 🙂

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Lee82Senior Contributor05 Dec 2020, 11:48 am AEDT

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You are beautiful inside my love. Definitely not dead. My face lit up when I saw your name too gorgeous. I felt my heart beat a little faster.
@Former-Member

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Zoe7Senior Contributor05 Dec 2020, 12:11 pm AEDT

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To be clear @Emelia8 I was not ready anything into it at all - I really did not understand and certainly did not make the connections with rhyming so I asked for clarification. Meanings and intent can certainly get lost at times in the written word and that is all it was. I did not for a minute see it as disrespect or any hidden messages - just did not know what you meant ...you clarified that at that made sense - so all good here