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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Former-Member @Lee82 @Zoe7 @Anastasia @Emelia8 @Eve7 @Faith-and-Hope

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Hello my love, I hope you are doing ok and that you amd your boys are getting some of that Christmas spirit that seems to be popping up everywhere. I am not so great but trying to keep distracted. Miss you so very much. Love you 3000 @Lee82

@Zoe , hope you are ok my beautiful friend. Sending you some love and huge hugs.

@Bunniekins , missing my pea. Hope you are doing ok my friend.

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Hey Mel, hope you are ok honey. Just popped back in to see if you where around. I wanted to say goodnight. Miss you beautiful @Lee82

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@Former-Member im sorry your struggling atm too. Do you want to talk about anything?

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I would rather not sweetie, but thanks for asking. Night meds have kicked in so this little black duck is off to bed. Good night @outlander I hoping to catch up on your news sometime soon. Missing you

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Goodnight @Former-Member its nice to see you popping up today. I hope you can get some sleep 💕🧡

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@Former-Member Hey beautiful have been just getting my head together. I love you izzy and my forum friends just been over loaded with emotion. Hope you are doing ok and thank you for caring. Love peaxxxx

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@Lee82 Thank you Lee82 just feeling worn out and emotionally crashed on. @Emelia8 I love you girl dont ever forget apologies if I hurt you I certainly didnt mean to. peaxxx

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Running on empty @Former-Member but just have to continue to put one foot in front of the other until the year ends - only 2 weeks of school left ...so much to do but just have to do it.

Hugs and hugs and hugs to you my friend

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@Bunniekins , wishing I had words that would help you some. Just know I am thinking of you.

@Zoe7 , I will hold onto the hope that you manage to do what you need to but also that the last two weeks of school go as quickly as possible. Hoping you have some self care time plan out for the end of school and that you are gentle with yourself. Hugs

@Anastasia , just wanted to say thank you for all your support. It means the world to me.

@Emelia8, my very special Em where would I be without you and your kind words and great advice. I am lucky to be able to call you friend.

@Lee82 , I wish there was someway to describe how important you have become to me, there are simply no words to do it justice. I think of you every day praying that you are ok, praying that you are able to get through another night. Sending you all my love always gorgeous lady.

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