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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I only have about 20 min left with my phone so if I dobf get to talk to you today my love I hipe I get to go tonorrow. I love you with every part of my behbg and I miss you so mych it hurts.
@Former-Member I'm sending you lots of hugs and hoping things f get better for you very soon beautiful girl.

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I am happy that you are getting help @Lee82 It has been a long time coming Hon and whilst it is not ideal it really is good to know you are getting help. You stay strong too Hon and let them look after you for a while. Seeing your boys I know would be a massive thing for you so I am so glad they can visit.

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@Emelia8 I have been reading along with youd updates. You Re an amazingly strong person my love. You've got thiz. You are. Fighter and I alwZyz have you in my thinoughts.

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No visits just calls for them. No visits allowed

@Zoe7

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If calls are all that you are allowed right now then that is what you have to work with @Lee82 Hearing their voices is better than nothing though Hon ...and have faith that getting this help now will benefit you all in the future ...I believe that for you Whenever you have doubts or feel like it is too much, remember all of us here on your side, thinking of you and waiting for the day you can come back to us ...because we will be waiting

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That's so lively of you @Zoe7

@I have ni faith no energy no wa nt anymore. I am so sorry I. Am broke and don't have much mire to give

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Wish I can caln you eight now @Former-Member

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Hon you do not have to give anything to anyone right now. All you need to do is let those trained to look after you ...and of course we here will be thinking of you @Lee82 You have hit rock bottom but are getting help - that is a really good thing. Your only thought needs to be you and getting through this - and you are in the right place for that now. Your strength, your energy, your faith in yourself will come in time but for now just rest because I can hear very clearly that that is not only what you need but all you can do. ...and we will be thinking of you and sending our warmest thoughts your way.

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You have such a. Ea beautiful souls my friend. Thank you a thousand tones over.
I ha s to log off now so intil bext time take icare if yourself

@Zoe7

@beautiful Izzy, Nikki, kimmy, Kim a s bear. Sending fyou all ne love. I hope I ca. Talk to you soo @Former-Member

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You are more than welcome @Lee82 Stay safe and rest Hon - will be thinking of you

@Former-Member Feeling for you too Hon and here if you need. Sending you love and hugs tonight also

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