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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Sending hugs and love to you @Lee82 @Former-Member thinking of you ❣️❣️

@Zoe7 💞

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Hi everyone. Day 3 today. Had a pretty bad night last night and I have a pretty full on day today. I have already had a CBT class at 10 and I have a psychology appointment soon and then a psychiatrist appointment later on plus I have to attend another god damn class but I would like nothing more than to skip it. Meds are truly horrible. Feel like they are turning me into a zombie.
hope everyone's Saturday goes ok. I will be watching the footy grand final tonight even though I do not go for either tigers or cats. Good luck to the supporters of both teams.
@Former-Member @Zoe7 @Anastasia @outlander @Emelia8 @Fluttershy1 @Snowie @NatureLover @Faith-and Hope @BlueBay @Maggie @Schitzo

my beautiful BFF I hope your Saturday gives you a little peace. I love you so very much. Missing you terribly. @Former-Member

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@Lee82 sending you love ❤️ xxx

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Thank you @Anastasia how are you going my love and how is your boys doing?

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Hello dear @Lee82 and thanks so much for the update on where you're at. Sounds pretty full-on. 😔

My AFL team is not in the GF either. But I will be watching, and will be hoping the Cats can beat the Tigers. Would love to see Dangerfield get a premiership. Amazing to realise he has never been in a GF. Must have missed Adelaides heyday. So go Geelong!

Thinking of you @Former-Member

Emelia 💞

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I agree with you totally. Go cats.
@Emelia8

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Hey @Lee82,

how are you hun?

I miss our conversations

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Me too hun. I am not doing so well.
how have you been?
@Fluttershy1

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@Lee82 - I've been horrible! I've been in and out of hospital, they have discharged me several times when I was unwell with my heart.
My MH has been abit like a rollercoaster...

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I do not have aprefernece as to who I want to win tonight either @Lee82 I would usually be going for the Tigers but think it would be nice for Ablett to end his amazing career on a high - as well as Dangerfield finally getting that premeirship - so either/or for me tonight.

It sounds really full on for you there Hon but hoping in the longer term it eases for you and helps. Hugs and hugs

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