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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Thank you hun. I hope you have been doing ok.
@Anastasia 💗

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Hey beautiful how you doing?
I have missed you so much. What are your plans for this week?
@Former-Member

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Just chilling in my paint room getting Christmas presents done and I have an appointment with Nat on Thursday, thank god my only MH appointment this week. Next week will be a bit🐿h I have three of them😔 Babe love you so very much.

Boys back at school today? What are you going to do to keep yourself safe sweetheart? Do you have any plans? I am super glad your MH team is trying to get you in sooner then March. @Lee82

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I am glad you only have 1 appointment this week hun cause I know last week was horrible for you. I hope you can feel safe, calm and relaxed in your paint room. I wish I had a room that I could escape to too.
Mr9 is back at school starting today but Mr13 doesn't go back til next mo day.
I have to check in with my psychologist everyday for awhile and take yet another medication. It makes me feel very weak and lethargic. I can hardly move. I hate it so much. it also gives me bad cramps in my stomach so I have t moved from the couch.
I have Mum coming over tonight for us to have a chat about things. I am so bloody anxious about it but I have no choice but to try and fix our relationship even just for a little while because I unfortunately need her to help me with the boys as I have no one else. So gotta swallow my pride or what very little I have anyway and suck it up.

love you to infinity and beyond my beautiful BFF

@Former-Member ❤️

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Sorry for not replying my friend, switching lots today and then had to pick mother up from hospital amd take her home. Still not home yet so I will reply when I get home. Hope everything is going ok with your mum. Chat soon ok. Love ya girl. @Lee82

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@Lee82 , how did it go with mum?

Good night friends @Schitzo @Anastasia @Eve7 @Emelia8 @NatureLover @Zoe7 @outlander @Bunniekins amd everyone els I mised

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Night dear @Former-Member hope you are ok x

Please stay safe @Lee82 ❤️

Night everyone

@Schitzo @Emelia8 x

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Goodnight @Former-Member hope you sleep well

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@Former-Member Hey beautiful. Thanks for the tag. Hoping you are going okayish. Love you. peaxxx

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@Emelia8 Good morning to you too Emelia. Is cloudy and wet hoping it will soon clear up so I can go for a walk. Wishing you a wonderful Tuesday. Love peaxxx

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