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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Lee82

Mel honey, I am starting to panic. Last time

You where gone like this without a word or a support button pushed, you broke our promise and the worst almost happened. I know better than anyone how alone you would have felt when I couldn't be here for you amd I am sorry. But I know you also understand why I had to take some time out a s thank you for respecting that and I too am trying to respect your decision but can't help but worry that maybe since you haven't even supported a post that you physically can't do that. BFF stomach is churning with worry and horrid thoughts. Please just suppor a post so we all know you are ok. Love you heaps babe

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Hi Dizzyizzy,
I am going to send you an email to check in with you.
Cheers,
Wenna

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@Former-Member 💖⭐🐶

@Lee82 👋🌷

Please be safe ... both of you.

Emelia 🌸

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Good morning everyone, I hope you all managed some restful amd peaceful sleep. Sending you all huge hugs and hopes that today is a good day for you.

💖🌹 @Lee82 🌹💖

💖🐶 @Emelia8 🐶💖

💖🌷 @Zoe7 🌷💖

💖🌸 @Anastasia 🌸💖

💖🦖 @outlander 🦖💖

💖🍀 @NatureLover 🍀💖

💜🦦 @Bunniekins 🦦💜

💜⭐️ @MDT 💥💜

❤️🎨 @Angels333 🎨❤️
❤️🦄 @Shaz51 🦄❤️
❤️🦋 @Maggie 🦋❤️
💙☃️ @Snowie ☃️💙

💙🐿 @Schitzo 🐿💙

💙🌺 @Owlunar 🌺💙

💙🌼 @Judi9877 🌼💙

💚🚘 @Sans911 🚘💚

Mel, missing you. @Lee82

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Huge sigh of relief my love, thank you. Love you lots babe. @Lee82

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Good Morning @Former-Member I hope you enjoy the sunshine today.

💛🤗🦋🤗💛

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I am so sorry my love. SH got out of hand and I ended up in hospital yesterday. I didn't have my phone on me. I am home now and ok just sore and tired. My MH team is trying to get me into hospital earlier than March.
I am so very sorry for worrying you. I feel terrible. I have been given a sedative so I probably won't be able to be around here much today but I will pop in when I can.
I love you so very much babe and I am again very very sorry for worrying you. I had you on my mind all day yesterday. I hope you are doing as ok as you can be. I miss you so very much. It has been a very lonely 30 hrs. @Former-Member

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Thank you all so very much for your posts yesterday. I feel very loved and supported. I was unable to get on yesterday due to being in hospital but I am home now.
I hope you all are ok and that your Tuesday has a little sparkle in it.
I may not be here very much today just know you are all in my thoughts. I care about you so very much.
@Former-Member @Emelia8 @Anastasia @outlander

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Sweetheart you are so special to us please be kind to yourself xxx

@Lee82

❤️❣️💞

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Good morning @Former-Member, I had a good nights sleep, thank you. Wishing you a wonderful day 💚🌼 xx

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