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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Who? @Former-Member

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Exh1 @Lee82

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Sorry I shouldn't have said anything. @Lee82 Discussion is over. I am sorry my love.

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Please don't do that. Don't shut me out. I c

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Please don't do that. Don't shut me out. I can't handle it. Please @Former-Member

no more questions just don't stop talking to me.

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I heard you my love and I am sorry my stuff is causing you pain. I know how you feel, I know how hard it is. But I really need you to look after yourself because when I get back from treatment, I am going to want you here and as ok as you can be with your stuff. @Lee82

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Hi @Former-Member and @Lee82

I hope you are both travelling as well as possible given the difficult circumstances in your lives at the moment. I just wanted to provide a gentle reminder about the importance to look after yourself for the sake of yourself. Please remember that you are both important and worthy of care in your own right, irrespective of your ability to help others. As I have said previously, you both have a lovely and supportive relationship - this is a gift! However, please do not feel pressure to support each other, if you are not coping well yourself first. As @Former-Member inferred, you need to look after yourself before you can help others. Nonetheless, if after trying to look after yourself you are still not in a space to support others, the Community Guides, Community Managers, SANE Moderators and other Forums members will be here. Additionally, you can both always reach out to the SANE Help Centre via web-chat or phone (1800 18 72 63) for extra support.

There are many people here to support you both!

Please take very good care of yourselves.

Kindest,

Amour_Et_Psyché

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I love you so much izzy

my name is Mel. I have wanted to tell you that for so long. I thought now might be a good time to tell you.
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Thank you💖 you mean so much to me Mel, you are beyond words. I know that you are trying to protect me and that is super sweet, but when I go, wherever I go you will be in my heart and I will be worried because of what you mean to me. I am going to be really honest. Going away, possible having no contact terrifies me, I am so scared that I am not going to be there to pull you back from the edge, I am afraid when I get back you will be gone, I am going to be left with a hole in my heart bigger than the one Kylie left when she passed. I love you Mel @Lee82

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@Lee82 just wanted to check in with you to see how your going?
has the anxiety eased? im sorry I dropped out before, ill go looking for the pics that you shared as well. not long got back from the gp so I couldn't log back in.
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