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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I didn't get your tag @Lee82 sorry,

Both my boys suffered from seperation anxiety in primary school, makes it very difficult. Poor little guy xox and poor Mumma as it is hard for you too xoxo Typical that the one who can't wait to return has to wait 😞

Sending love xox

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Oh @Lee82

Talk about blind sighted, my boy has come home and now wants to move out up to his fathers because he is "not doing well"!!!!!!

I don't have words...

@Zoe7 @WIP

@Bunniekins what planet am I living on that he and I are on such different pages??????????? I am a complete mess and now I have to focus back on this stupid job 😞 :(:(

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Oh @Anastasia

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Oh @Anastasia I am sitting with you hun holding your hand. I'm sorry I have no words of advice for you. I wish I knew what to tell you.
I am here if you want to talk about it. I know you are at work right now so I hope the rest of your day goes by quickly. ❤️

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Well he's gone 😞

For two weeks at this stage

I am broken hearted @Lee82 @Zoe7

Now I have to work 😞

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Hey @Anastasia As hard as it is maybe try to see this as a reset for you both - a little holiday where you can clear your mind, work on plenty of self-care and rest your mind and body. ...and of course we will be here for you to help you get through 💖💖💖💖💖

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I have to take Tobes to the vet now @Anastasia but will check in on you when I get back

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Oh honey I am super worried about you. If you can can you please just press the support button for me.
love you 3000

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Hey @Anastasia Back from the vet. How are you holding up Hon?

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Hi @Zoe7

I hope little Tobes went well?

Apart from being embarrassed that I cried and couldn't get my words out on the phone when I received a call from the support worker I am ok. I'm sad, really ridiculously sad. Sad that my boy has the issues that he has, I question how much is nature, how much is nuture. I miss him terribly and worry that he won't get the support he needs. He came home from physcologist and was a different person. Sometimes I wonder if I am totally insane and living on a parallel planet.

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