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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I am so sorry you are not feeling great right now. Please be safe, I don't have any helpful adivce so sorry my love. I am here for you though. Sending you gentle hugs @Lee82

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Thanks hun. What arw you doing noe? You able to rest ny love?

@Former-Member

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I am lying down under my weighted blanket waiting for Hubby to come home and help me do my afternoon selsf care. Please be gentle with you @Lee82

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That's good to hear babe. What tume is he due hjj in e ?

i kind of gut I little told off on here before and I had a bit of an episode over it. So it's just the effects of thT. My body is just so over rhese episodes that it doesn't cope veeyv well afterwards anymore. It takes. Me a long time ti recover

@Former-Member

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He is not due home for a couple of hours, I just can't move right now. D2 is due home soon as if I really need anything I will ask her. I know that is why I said sorry before. I feel bad.

Wishing there was something I could do for you @Lee82

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There's no need to mo e hun. Laying right there is all you need to. Ebe doing. I am under my blanket too at the moment but wishing it was a weighted one rigth now.
dint feel bad babe. I just get so upset because I am trying to express ny concern for my friend and make sure she is ok and get told off for it. I don't know abiut you but u kind of feel like when we both chat to each other we are closely monitored

@Former-Member

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Have I said something wrong babe?
@Former-Member

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Absolutely not my love, I went to reply and blanked out. Another alter came out no sure which one but they decided to go for a walk with my phone, left the house unlocked and no shoes 😔 How are you feeling now @Lee82

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Oh honey. I'm so sorry. Were you back home before you came back?
I am not too bad. Feeling a little better. At least I can focus better now and I don't feel so dizzy.
@Former-Member

how you feeling?

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Unfortunately yes, we had walked about ten minutes from hme😔 I am angry right now that is the main emotion but it's good because it keeps everything away. I don't feel anything when I am this angry

I am glad you are not dizzy anymore and can focus better. @Lee82

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