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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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trust me the practise canvas is nothing great but it will be @Anastasia

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@Former-Member I have been struggling to keep up with the forums, but I just caught up on the last few pages...I want to say, I so much admire your wisdom and insight, into both how you are doing and how others are doing. You are truly amazing, I am lucky to have met you on here.

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I couldn't agree more @NatureLover

@Former-Member you always make sure you check on your mates even with your own sh*t going on. You are a good friend.

I am lucky to have found you both as well as all of my other forum friends xoxo

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I am the lucky one @NatureLover , you truly are a gem of a person so kind and caring. Don't worry about not keeping up, just keep loooking after you. Sending you hhuge hugs

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@Anastasia , you guys aren't mates, you are family and the best part of my recovery. Having the support of you guys has made a real difference in my healing

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Thank you, @Former-Member ...sending you huge hugs back 💜

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@Lee82 , are you around lovely?

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I'm right here babe.
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Sorry about before, I just know that I would most likely have gotten prompted to leave anyway. It got really bad and really close, I am feeling so sick right now and sleepy. Not good at all.

How are you feeling Mel? @Lee82

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I am so very sorry you were triggered babe.
I am feeling the same way at the moment. I am laying on the couch. I. Any stop shaking and. I w am very dizzy. I don't j so what's wring

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