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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Is this nikki? I can understand why you are angry hun. That would have been very unsettling.
@Former-Member

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Yep the one and only 😂 @Lee82

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Hey gorgeous. You feeling better now babe?
@Former-Member

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No Mel, Shadow amd the monster decided to play and I am sore. No medical needed. I am just useless and beyond a joke of a human. Meds have finally started to kick in so I will be asleep soon thank god. @Lee82

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Oh honey I am so so sorry to hear that. Please don't say you are useless and a joke babe. That hurts my heart. You are one of the most beautiful brave kind hearted person I know. That is the absolute truth. You have been through unimaginable pain but you still carry on. You have raised 3 beautiful kids and have been able to live a pretty normal life. That is amazing my love. Things are really rough at the moment but I know you can make it through to the other side. You just have to keep believing and stay strong.
I love you unconditionally and will forever and day.
@Former-Member ❤️

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Is Sean home?
@Former-Member

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Yes @Lee82

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@Former-Member @Lee82 💕💕

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I am sorry my love, this a side of me that I don't particularly want to put you through having to deal with. I haven't been this angry in years and I am not a nice person at this point. So I will see if your up later and we can chat if I am in a better mood. This Nikki isn't the one you don't want to know.

Love you goodnight @Lee82

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I want to know all of you hun. Good the bad the ugly. I love every part of you hun no matter what. I will always be here for you and I will always support and love you no matter what. Nothing will ever change that. I can promise you that

@Former-Member

I hope you get some rest my BFF. Hopefully we can chat later.

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