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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Former-Member Hey lovely 🙂 hoping you are okayish. Cannot read your post properly as son2 is talking to me atm. Will endeavour to read in the morning. Take good care of yourself. Love you peaxxx

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@Lee82 @Bunniekins

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That is more then enough beautiful lady. Please take care of you. 💖💖💖 @Zoe7

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@Zoe7 I know you are going through hell atm. I am here for you sweetheart whenever you need me. Love your friend peaxxx

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Oh little pea - that means more than you know right now - thank you to the stars and back @Bunniekins 💖💖💖

@Former-Member You take care of you too Hon 💖💖💖

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@Lee82 , my gorgeous friend how are you feeling tonight? love ya heaps

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I am beyond exhausted tonight hun. I have been battling anxiety all day with a few dizzy spells that I cannot explain. I felt like I was blacking out but only for a few seconds. I had a couple panic attacks.
how you doing tonight my love?

also did you get a notification for my other message to you in response to your message earlier hun?

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I just read your reply @Lee82 , sorry you are exhausted tonight. When will you take your night meds my love? Wishing I was with you

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Wishing you were with me too. Actually if I'm wishing anything I wish I was there with you in sunny Queensland...🤣

i have just taken them but my anxiety is quite high tonight I'm not sure if I will get to sleep anytime soon.
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It was not really a surprise as I told Em, he has been battling depression and si since we where teenagers.

The reply I want to type is too emotional. What we think the most is what the universe hears and you and I are constantly thinking that there is no way out for us, that we are not going to get better, that we are not good enough so the universe goes ok here you go...... It's so hard to change the way you are thinking about yourself when you get reminded by your birth giver all the time, when the actions of others also tell you the same dam thing. I know this because I go through it everyday as well.

I am so sorry that I am not really helpful my love. @Lee82

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