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Something’s not right

Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I totally agree with what you have said hun. It's pretty :pile_of_poo: that that's just the way it is. It's discouraging when you are reminded on a daily bases.
just knowing that you understand hun and that you are here to listen is all that I need babe. That helps more than I can explain.
@Former-Member

how you feeling tonight hun?
hows the switching going? Has it settled a little?

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Switching is getting worse and I am surprised none of you have been subjected to the nastiness of Shadow tonight. This is the longest time I have been present in over a week. You are to kind to me my love.

This is the last time I will mention the "word" as you are definitely one of my reasons for not posting it here, I don't want you to be thinking of what it might be PLEASE. If you happen to use it that's ok and if I happen to reacted then that's my bad not yours. Love you so very much Mel @Lee82

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I am so sorry hun. Have you any idea why it's so bad at the moment? What does Nat say about it? Has she given you any ways to perhaps help stop it or at least slow it down?
@Former-Member

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It is time for me to brush off the glitter and go to bed. I really wish I could hang around a little but these night meds have kicke in. If for some reason I am awake at stupid o'clock I will check in and see if anyone is about.
@Lee82 @Zoe7 @Bunniekins @Emelia8 @Eve7 @Owlunar @MDT @Shaz51 @Maggie @Lostandalone @Anastasia @outlander @Angels333

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Since I am going to bed and don't have to read you going mad at me I will be honest with you!! I am avoiding contact with Nat

Nothing slows it down it has to run its course so to speak. I am safe though honey. Love you to the moon and back a 1000 time over @Lee82

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Goodnight @Former-Member sleep well 💙💕

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Seeing as you are off to bed I shall leave that one alone. (For now) 😉

sweet dreams my love and I love you so very very much beautiful.
@Former-Member

thank you for chatting with me tonight. 😘💙😘

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Been meaning to tell you all day @Former-Member ... I love your chair for the paint room. You can never have too much glitter! Good night beautiful, and hope you sleep well.

Thanks so much for being here for me tonight.

@Lee82 Sorry to hear your planned hospitalisation is being jeopardised due to deteriorising relationship with your mum. I really hope you can work something out.

Em 😴💖

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Thanks so much hun @Emelia8

I hope you can have a restful night tonight.
why can't things just go smoothly and easily? Why does it have to be so difficult? Giving up on therapy and help just seems like the only way at the moment. I disappoint everyone around me so why set myself up so fail again.

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@Lee82 💞

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