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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Hey sweets. Nice you see you again babe.
do you have any plans for tomorrow babe?

@Former-Member

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Nope, just in the painting room again. I had to stop working down there today as I near passed out because of lack of food and water. I swear that man of mine has a sixth sense for when I am about to hit the floor as he is always right there to steady me and help me down so I don't hurt myself. @Emelia8 , I am not actually doing my painting yet it is still under renovation huge hugs to you both. @Lee82

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Oh geez hun I'm glad he was there too.
Please babe you need to remember to eat and drink. If you can't put an alarm on your phone.
@Former-Member

how much longer you think the paint room has before it's finished?

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Maybe another two weeeks at this rate but it's going to be gorgeous. It happens a lot when I spend the day switching, usually don't eat on those days. My night meds are kicking in so I will say goodnight now. If I am awake at dumb o'clock I will see if you are around. @Lee82

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Ok my love. I hope you get a really good rest.
love you so very much babe.
@Former-Member

cant wait to see the finished product babe.
I hope your switching slows down for you tomorrow I can imagine it would be difficult to get things done when that is happening.
😘😘

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Night my friends. I missed you today @Former-Member

Sweet dreams to you all

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Morning babe @Lee82

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How you doing hun?

@Former-Member

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Hey beautiful nikki. How you feeling this morning?

@Former-Member Did you get enough sleep last night?

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