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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Hey gorgeous girl, yeah we did thank you. Was awake just before 4 for a cuppa and a ciggie then 2 more hour of sleep. How was your night? Hubby is downstairs working on the paint room and I am upstairs getting a list of things I need for Xmas presents and my special project. What's your plans today? @Lee82

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@Lee82 @Former-Member
thinking of you both 💙💙💙

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That's so great to hear hun. I had about 4 hours sleep last night. Feeling pretty exhausted. Just homeschooling today and I have to go food shopping at some stage today just got to get the motivation to do so.
@Former-Member

already thinking of Christmas...wow you are organised. Lol maybe I should think about that too. 😘

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Hey @outlander how are you doing hun? How's the head feeling?

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Hey hun how you feeling this afternoon?
i could really use some Advice from you if you are around babe please. @Former-Member

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Hey @Lee82 , I am here now if that helps at all

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Getting very worried @Lee82

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I am so sorry. We had no power and I dropped hot oil on my hand and so I had to try and deal with that in the dark which wasn't fun and my battery on my phone went flat because I was using the torch.
I'm so sorry didn't mean to worry you my love

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Is your hand ok Mel? No need to be sorry, I am a tad sensitive now and was over reacting again, I even stressed out because the noise downstairs had stop and hubby hadn't come upstairs so thought he had hurt himself, he was on the phone to his sister.

Did you still want to ask me something @Lee82

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It's pretty sore and its blistered. I'll see how it is in the morning and if need be I'll go to the doctors.
It's ok my love I know that feeling all too well. It's very real and unsettling.
yea I still want to ask you your advice about something but perhaps tonight is not the right time. I just don't want to put more stress on you hun. It can wait til tomorrow or the next day.
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