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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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💝🌹 @Lee82 🌹💝 love u

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Love you so much my beautiful BFF!

@Former-Member 🦋💗🦋

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Good afternoon all. I hope you all have a lovely day today. I will thinking of you all and sending you all lots of hugs and well wishes for a relaxing Sunday.
@Former-Member @Emelia8 @Anastasia @Zoe7 @outlander @NatureLover @Fluttershy1 @Eve7 @Maggie @Faith-and-Hope

❤️🦋❤️💐

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How you doing tonight my love?

i am worried abiut you.
@Former-Member

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@Emelia8 wrote:
@NatureLover... Hi beautiful, sending love your way. I think you have been quiet so far today. Hope you have not slipped back into depression.

Thank you, dear @Emelia8 ...I think I am OK...getting there. Not much emotional energy for posting today though. I hope your day goes well today, with all you have on...

Oh @Former-Member , I was so sad to read what you wrote:

It was probably the strong emotions of happiness from this morning, she hates good feeling with such passion. I am never aloud to be that happy 😒 I learnt early on in life that, that kind of happiness is reserved for people who deserve it.
It's turned into a really bad night @Lee82 @and @Myboy

You definitely deserve happiness, and I'm so sorry you weren't allowed to be happy...I can relate to that, sadly... 😞 I hope today is better for you...

Thinking of you, @Lee82 ...hoping today is OK for you, being Father's Day...

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Poor little sweetheart!! I am so sorry he had such a bad night last night. Sending you both some strength and a gentle hug to get through another day babe.
much love to you and your sweet boy

@Anastasia ❤️

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Its a tough day for me today hun as I haven't seen or spoken to my dad in 14 years.
@NatureLover

I hope you day has some sparkle in it. 🌟

sending you lots of hugs. ❤️💙💚💜🧡

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Thanks @Lee82 @Emelia8 hope your day goes ok too

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@Lee82 wrote:

Its a tough day for me today hun as I haven't seen or spoken to my dad in 14 years.


I'm really sorry to hear 😞 @Lee82 ...I am thinking of you today and wishing you extra strength 💚

My day has sun (as you would know), so that is really good for me - thank you 🙂 I hope the sunshine is good for you too.

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@NatureLover i hope todays a good one for you too. Im glad your days has sun in it. Hope that means you can go for a walk out in the fresh air
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