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Darkness

Unknown userMember23 Apr 2020, 7:03 pm AEST

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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NatureLoverSenior Contributor06 Sept 2020, 11:54 am AEST

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Thanks so much, sweet @outlander 🙂 I've been for a walk, the weather's beautiful...

Thinking of you also today, in case Father's day is difficult for you... 💙

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Lee82Senior Contributor06 Sept 2020, 11:56 am AEST

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Thank you @NatureLover. not the nest day. Spending it alone but at least the weather is nice.

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NatureLoverSenior Contributor06 Sept 2020, 12:03 pm AEST

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Alone, @Lee82 ? Is that OK...I mean, will you be safe?

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Lee82Senior Contributor06 Sept 2020, 12:18 pm AEST

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It has ti bw hub.
@NatureLover

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Unknown userMember06 Sept 2020, 1:59 pm AEST

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Hey @Lee82, I'm really sorry if today is a very painful day. I hope you are able to take good care of yourself. Please continue to use peer support here, but also keep an eye on yourself and whether you need off-forum support too. Warmest 🌻

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NatureLoverSenior Contributor06 Sept 2020, 2:15 pm AEST

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@Lee82 wrote:
It has ti bw hub.
@NatureLover

@Lee82 , just want to check in with you and see if you're safe...

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Unknown userMember06 Sept 2020, 2:29 pm AEST

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Hey @NatureLover,

It seems like today is a tough one for a lot of people, and you have been a wonderful support. I'm hearing you're concerned about people's safety, I can truly appreciate how hard it is to know people are in distress and have to sit with so much uncertainty about how they're going.

I'm wondering about how distressing this is for you though 🌻 I'd really encourage you to take a self-care break if it is upsetting you. You can trust that us mods are keeping an eye on safety, and encouraging people to get the right support if they are distressed or unsafe. If you think we have missed something, please drop us an email or tag us 🙏

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NatureLoverSenior Contributor06 Sept 2020, 2:39 pm AEST

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Thanks @Former-Member . I appreciate it. I don't think you've missed anything at all, on the contrary, I think you are very attentive. And I am not distressed...but I will do as you suggest and take a break from the forums.

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Unknown userMember06 Sept 2020, 2:56 pm AEST

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Take care @NatureLover 🌷

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Zoe7Senior Contributor06 Sept 2020, 2:57 pm AEST

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Thanks so much for the hugs and love @Former-Member Been to see my Dad today and had to drive past my friend's own house as a result - it was tough knowing I would be doing that but there is no other way to my parents' place. There were also a large amount of bikes on the road today so that added to the sadness. Lunch was nice but I didn't stay long - have too much to do before this week and need sleep also. Was up most of the night - which seems to be my pattern lately when I have too much on my mind. I hope you have had some light in your day today Hon - those joyous moments may be few and far between for a lot of us but we need to hold onto them as long as we can

@Lee82 So much love and hugs coming your way as well sweetheart

@Anastasia I truly hope you are having a good day with your Dad and family. HUgs and hugs for you also

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