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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Anastasia I'm sorry I got it so wrong, and you have some bad lived experience 😞

I did go looking for your story, I went to your earliest posts on the forums under your profile, but there wasn't much information about you, you mentioned your boy of course, and also right from the start you were posting in support of other people

Thank you for replying in detail, not a tangent at all, your world revolves around your boy and he is really lucky to have you.

Do you have a home thread?

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Good morning beautiful. No need to apologise I am just so happy you got enough rest and that you aren't feeling tired today. I truly hope you have a nice day today with your family. That sounds like a nice outing.
I really hope you can feel safe again with Nat hun and I am so proud of you for being able to confront her even though it was extremely hard to do.

my boys are doing well at homeschooling especially Mr13. The youngest still struggles a lot. The monster wasn't very nice last night but I am ok. Feeling exhausted this morning but the sun is out and so I am hoping to go for a walk at some stage today.
I love you with all my heart beautiful and I want you to know that you are the most special person in the world to me. 💗

@Former-Member

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Thank you for your support @NatureLover it is really appreciated and needed. I hope you have a lovely Saturday hun. ❤️

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Good morning @Emelia8 hoping you have can enjoy your Saturday babe. Thank you for all your support. You are truly beautiful 💜

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That is fantastic news pea. I am so happy for you hun. Hope you enjoy your morning on your own and that you get more nights like last night. Sending you one big giant hug. 💚

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Big hugs 🤗 @Former-Member

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Please don't be sorry @NatureLover

I don't talk much about myself so you weren't to know. I did start one can't remember what the name of it is and for memory it was about my boy rather than me. I'm so grateful for the friendships I've made here and being accepted. I don't fit in well in life just because I'm so tied up with my boy and it makes me unreliable to do things with others.

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Onya @Former-Member
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I am in overwhelm, I am so very tried and don't know what to do with myself!!!!! No it's not a negative thing for a change. We did not in fact going shopping for suits this morning (which still has to be done) but D3 had arranged with her siblings and hubby to go to her unit for a surprise belated birthday breakfast 🥰 She had all

the trimmings pink pancakes for me and regular pancakes for everyone else bacon and eggs and ice cream and maple syrup, she had brought her siblings there favourite drink and brought me mine. She made a strawberry tea for her and her stepdad. She was the perfect little hostesses and made me so proud. When I thanked her for the billionth time she said to me "I wanted to make it special for you the way you always did for me" There was an immediate flood warning issued for her little home as I bust into a flood of happy tears. I did take a pic of them all to share and while I made sure you couldn't see their faces I am not sure it would pass by the mods so I won't risk it. BEST MORNING EVER

@Lee82 @Anastasia @Eve7 @NatureLover @Emelia8 @outlander @Zoe7 @Bunniekins

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