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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I can't love this enough @Former-Member.

So happy you've had a special morning ❣️❣️💗 now perhaps a rest beautiful?

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So happy to hear about your special happy morning, @Former-Member ! You so deserve it!! 🙂

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Omg....I am so so so happy for you hun. Your post has melted my heart. You deserve everything that your daughter did for you babe. I am so overwhelmed. I am actually I. Tears right. Ow for you. This is the best news I got all don't.
I love you so so much hun I can't even put it into worlds.
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I just want to give you a great big u in n.

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Thank you @Anastasia and @NatureLover 🥰

Thanks babe and it means even more that you tried so hard to disguise your rising panic attack to post that message. When you are able to talk I will be here. I will check regularly to see if your on line my love. @Lee82

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Ohhh @Former-Member ... that soooo warms my little old heart. How lovely for you all. Really happy for you.

Once the flood has dispersed ... I hope the rest of your day continues in the vein in which it has started.

I hope you can hold this morning in your heart every time you start to feel down.

Much love to you.

Hi @Lee82 @NatureLover @Anastasia @MDT and others here.

Emelia 😊💖

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Can't belive you noticed my love. That's ehat makes tiuv an amazing friend.
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Em, it was such an amazing feeling. D3 and I don't have the best relationship so it made it even more special for me. I am definitely feeling blessed right now and still smiling like an idiot 😂 that pic was beautiful thank u. @Emelia8

Of course I noticed my love, it was a awesome attempt at hiding it. 🥰 love you 3000 @Lee82

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@Former-Member how wonderful 😄 and richly deserved too I might add for a lovely lady. xxx

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You deserve to smaile my love. I am so happy right now for you. Knowing that you have ahad a nice day with your kids is amazing. I can't begin to tell you just how much this has made me so happy for tiu.
llve you so very mixh

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