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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Hey hun. How you doing?

@Former-Member

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Good morning ladies @Lee82 @Former-Member @Anastasia @Emelia8 @Fluttershy1 @NatureLover and all who follow hoping everyone is still sleeping soundly and enjoying a calm Saturday morning. I have some big news which I have been telling everyone (sorry to double up on some here) but I slept 10 hours! Slee pea pea! Yay! feel great. Plus I have this morning to myself which is even better. Wishing everyone a great weekend. Love you all. pea

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Hi there dear @Bunniekins ... Really happy for you in getting 10 hours sleep. 😄 I'm very jealous. 🌷 You sound on a real high. Who needs drugs aye ... sleep will do the trick. Have a great day sweet Pea.

Good morning @Former-Member @Lee82 @Anastasia 💓

Lotsa love to each of you.

Emelia 🌸🌿

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@Emelia8you know what you say is true when I am manic I get no sleep whatsoever but with sleep it is soothing on the body as well as the mind. I hope you have a wonderful day Emelia.

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@Bunniekins wrote:

Slee pea pea! Yay! feel great.


Awww! Really happy to hear, @Bunniekins ! Hehe for "slee pea pea" 😄

Really sorry to read that you both had an awful day yesterday, @Lee82 and @Former-Member 😞 Have been following along quietly...I hope your nights were both reasonably OK and that today is a better day for you both...

@Anastasia I think you are a treasure.

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@NatureLover 💜 you're pretty special yourself xxxx

Loving the 10 hours sleep sweet pea, yayyyyy!I!!a I'm awake but with just one eye open @Bunniekins 💚

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Sorry babe I fell straight back to sleep. I am surprisingly feel well rested🙀 It was hard yesterday being completely honest with Nat about how I felt our session before went and I was still feeling unsafe when I left. So in order to work through that I have two sessions next week and some homework to do before Monday's session.

How are you feeling this morning? How bad did the monster get last night? How are your gorgeous young men doing with homeschooling again? How is Mr Boris? Enough questions from me. Remember you matter and I love you

💝🌹 @Lee82 🌹💝

💖🍄 @NatureLover 🍄💖

💖👸 @Bunniekins 👸💖

💖🐶 @Emelia8 🐶💖

💖🌺 @Anastasia 🌺💖

💖🦖 @outlander 🦖💖

💜🌼 @Zoe7 🌼💜

💖🌻 @Eve7 🌻💖

💖🎨 @Angels333 🎨💖

💖🌞 @Shaz51 🌞💖

💖💐 @Maggie 💐💖

💖🌸 @Former-Member 🌸💖

💖🦄 @eth 🦄💖

💖🐖 @MDT 🐖💖

💖🐾 @Ant7 🐾💖

I hope everyone has an easy Saturday ahead of them. Take one step at a time with everything you do and just remember that you got this. I will be spending the morning with D2 and my son shopping for suits for a family wedding that at this stage can still happen. Think of you all often.

YOU MATTER💙

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Thank you @Anastasia ...do I have it right that you don't have lived experience yourself? That you're here for your boy?

Then I wonder how we got so lucky as to have you on the Lived Experience side of the forums...

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@Former-Member wrote:

So in order to work through that I have two sessions next week and some homework to do before Monday's session.


Lovely to see you with your update, @Former-Member ...I will be thinking of you next week with those sessions...

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My own decline in my mental health is what brought me here @NatureLover

I was thinking of sh regularly and crying constantly. I rang the help line, it helped. I then found the forums. It also helped. Since then too I've seen a physciatrist and a pycologist. I will continue to see her. All have helped but I still have dark days. My life revolves around my boy and trying to get him on the right path. It's difficult, it's been a very long road but I lrefuse to give up and I am an absolute Warrior advocate for his and mental health in general. One day I will make a difference, I'm not sure how and right now it's for my boy but when he's living his best life I will try to help educate ignorance around mental health. I'm the lucky one @NatureLover . Thank you for your kind words they mean a lot. Sorry I went on a bit of a tangent xxxx

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