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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I understand @Lee82

That was me last night ❤️

My day was good, thanks hun and my boy had a good day so that always makes me happy x

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Oh I am so happy for you hun. I hope you and him have more days like today. ❤️

@Anastasia

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Thank you @Lee82

It's hard to get excited as the relapses are frequent. But yes I am trying to stay positive. He had his first face to face 4 hours with his support worker this week and we found out he can have a full day too so his spirits have been lifted. He has no one other than me and his grandparents so having someone his age to hang out with is a godsend. ❤️ He has no friends so hopefully his sw will give him some confidence and tools to make/keep friendships. He's beautiful, he deserves that ❤️

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That's fantastic. Keep staying positive hun.

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That's fantastic. Stay positive hun. Yes he deserve a happy life with friends and confidence and I truly wish that for him. May I ask how old he is? You don't have to answer that if you don't want to hun. I will understand.
@Anastasia

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Thank you beautiful @Lee82

Of course you can ask, he's 19. He'll be 20 this month. He's my "baby", I have an older son too. It's been the three of us since my youngest was 1. They are my world.

My eyes are heavy I'm sorry. I should get some sleep. I hope you do too. I love you @Lee82 and I'm grateful for your friendship here. Thank you for listening ❤️

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No worries hun. I hope you can get some rest babe.
I completely understand when you say they are your world. My kids are my world too and we have been on our own for just over 2 years now. It's really tough being a single parent.
@Anastasia

I am very grateful for your friendship too hun.

sending you love and hugs ❤️💙💚💜

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I came back I feel dreadful I left without making sure you are ok? @Lee82 Are you hun?

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Naww sweets. Thank you. I will be ok hun.
@Anastasia

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@Lee82 💖

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