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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Sounds like a rough one @Fluttershy1 . We are here for you, and just by reaching out you are doing right by you.

Sometimes all we can do is breathe through it all, try to self-soothe, and hope for a better tomorrow. Sending you some extra strength and care tonight

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I sent you a tag to a post I'm not sure you got it so I am coping and pasting it here again and hopefully this time you will get a notification for it.

So I went and saw my psychiatrist today. He has put me on even more meds and I have no option but to be admitted into hospital for EMDR treatment. It runs for a minimum of 4weeks. 😞

@Dizzyizzy

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@Jynx - I feel like I have failed many people...

I feel like I need to hide away....

things just aren't great.

im becoming switchy, I keep disassociating.

voices are loud....

Im safe

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I just don't know what to do. I feel this is my last option but at the same time I am afraid to try not to mention I have to be away from my kids for 4 weeks.
@Anastasia

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Have you tried meditation hun? Perhaps that is something that may help to calm the voices. I'm not too sure what else to suggest. I'm so sorry hun.
@Fluttershy1

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@Lee82 @Former-Member @Anastasia @Emelia8 - time to hid hid hid.

hope you are all well.
me cry and hid hid hid

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Ok sweetie if you need to hide that is fine. If that's what keeps you feeling safe. Just know we are still all here for you. @Fluttershy1

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@Lee82 - 😭😭😭, I sori sori sori I fal Yu one agn

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No need to say sorry sweets. It's ok

@Fluttershy1

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@Lee82 - no ok ok ok no ok ok ok

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