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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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😂😂 thanks babe that's definitely a distraction.
wluld love to have some ice cream unfortunately I ate the last of it the other night. 😞

welcome to my world...it is unbelievably cold here. It's ridiculous.
What you up to?
@Former-Member

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Right now freezing my you know what's off having a ciggie 🥶🥶🥶🥶🥶 watching jurassic Parks "Jurassic World" movie, cause why not freak out inner child with dinosaurs 😳😳😳 just joking it's was her choice!!!!! And chatting with you and @outlander

what about you hun @Lee82

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I love jurrassic park and jurrassic world @Former-Member ive been watching the series over the past day or so. Great movies

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@outlander , D2 is obsessed with dinosaurs 🦕 For her 26th birthday she had a jurassic Park themed birthday cake. 😂

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@Former-Member

Mr8 is obsessed with the Jurassic park movies. We watched the cars movie together before he went to bed. He kept cuddling up to me but I couldn't handle it. It was to triggering. I had to keep telling me to move over...poor little man wouldn't have known what was going on 😞😞😞

those sorts of things breaks me heart because both my kids are cuddly kids and usually I love nothing more.
I was sent to bed around 10 so I am in my room talking to you and outlander too. I can't listen to music as its too triggering at the moment

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Lol ! @Former-Member 🌷

Try not to be to bard on yourself @Lee82 10pm is pretty decent hour of a young one. Sometimes it gets abit much but im sure he will forgive you 💖

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Sorry about spelling i have fat fingers tonight 🤦‍♀️

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Oh babe, that really is tough and unfortunately I know that feeling only to well. I promise it does get easier through healing and time. Kids are resilient and Mr8 will be ok. aryour last family session with you, your boys sort of where you are at so I think they understand more than you know.

just talk to us then babe, I am not going anywhere @Lee82

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Lol @outlander , I have fat fingers every night. 😂😂😂

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Oh no he wasn't up til 10...lol we watched the movie at 7 then he went to bed. It's hard not to be hard on myself when I have two kids that rely on me to be strong, happy and there for them for whatever they need. Right now I can't be any of those things and that kills me.
@outlander

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