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Something’s not right

Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Babe are you safe?
@Former-Member

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You ok babe?
@Former-Member

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Babe I'm getting worried. @Former-Member
can you please come back to me.

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I am here honey @Lee82

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Are you ok ?

@Former-Member

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No I am not ok, I am struggling with the

disassociation. I know "she" is calming down as she has been spending time with exh2 and talking to him. Unfortunately the first time he had been having a pillow fight with Kimmy and she popped out and smacked him in his face pretty hard 😞 but they haven't got to "her" issue yet it can take a while. please don't stress out if it takes a while for me to reply as I am currently lossing time every few minutes.

you still haven't promised me @Lee82

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I'm so sorry babe. I wish there was something I could do for you. Thank you gorgeous for letting me know. If you would feel better leaving for a bit please tell me babe but if you do leave you have to promise me you will be safe.
@Former-Member
I promise babe when the time is right I will try and get the help that I need.
❤️

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Thank you for promising me you will get the help you deserve my love. Small steps everyday and being gentle with yourself talk will go a long way to helping you make it. I promise to be there every step of the way.

If you are doing ok then I would rather hang around for a little. I can't take my night meds now because it's too late so I am in for a long night. How are you doing right now sweetie. @Lee82

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just need distractions. The monster is lurking around. Flashbacks all day long takes it toll. @Former-Member

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Ice cream if you don't mind a brain freeze. I can't believe how cold it is already. We don't usually get this type of weather till the end of May and even then it's this cold. I got my pink fluffy socks on and my Elsa inspired dressing gown on. There is a distraction for you. 😂😂😂😂😂 @Lee82

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