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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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We’re always going to be here with open arms and a kettle boiling for your cuppa.

@Former-Member

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@Former-Member I am so sorry Hon but I have nothing to give at present apart from my love to you and some big squishy hugs

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Thanks for your post IzzyDizzy. Ive sent you an email to check in to see where youre at emotionally at the moment. Please take care

Thanks

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@Former-Member ... I really hope the therapy goes better today, as you get deeper into the Safe and Sound treatment.

So sorry you are feeling so utterly alone, its a really hard emotion to counteract. You may not feel you have anyone in your real life that you can safely talk to, but you definitely have here. And a big bunch of members who adore you, appreciate you for who you are as well as for the lovely caring support you provide to us all when you're able.

Thinking of you today, as I do every day. Sending love and a big hug for you my very dear friend.

Hi also to @Lee82 ... I know you are going through a terrible time right now, but you never cease to amaze me how well you are coping with so much. Keep up the great work, everyone here is very proud of you.

Emelia 🌸

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Oh @Former-Member , I would definitely want to be your friend in real life like a shot, you are such a beautiful, warm and thoughtful person As it is, I'm honoured to be your friend here online. 🙂 I think some people can't handle mental illness, maybe they can't face it in themselves so can't deal with it in others...I can't think of any other reason that people wouldn't want to be there for you in real life. 😞

But I am so sorry you feel so alone... And also about the bad news you had from D3 :(Thinking of you lots as you go through this time with limited contact online, plus the therapy...hoping that the therapy works sooner rather than later...sending you heaps of warm wishes and gentle hugs...

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@Emelia8 You are so sweet. Thank you for your encouragement. I hope you are doing ok my friend. Sending you hugs ❤️

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Beautiful, I just want you to know that I am thinking of you and that I love you so very much.
I truly hope your safe and sound session went better than yesterday hun.
@Former-Member ❤️🦋❤️

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Eating ice cream and thinking of you

@Former-Member ❤️

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@Zoe7 and @outlander , you thoughts and love are more then enough. I am so sorry you bother are struggling at the moment. Please know I think of you often. Sending love and hugs to you both.

@NatureLover , thank you for your sweet message about being my friend in real life. Made me smile through my tears

@Emelia8 , I heard you my beautiful friend. You are never alone really, just like you told me "I am with you always in spirit. I think of you during my day a lot. Sending you huge hugs. Love you

@NiteKat , I am sorry I haven't replied to your email but my emails have locked me out and right now I can't get in. I am ok

@Lee82 , my gorgeous Mel, thank you very much for your messages sweetie they help me more then you will ever know. Knowing you are right here is a ray of light in my blackness right now. Kimmy wanted me to say 🤮:nauseated_face:🤮:nauseated_face:🤮:nauseated_face:WHO PUTS PEANUT BUTTER IN ICE CREAM!!! she loves the cookie dough from them. I love you so much.

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