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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Former-Member @Lee82 💙💚

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@Former-Member @Lee82 Thinking of you both and sending warm wishes and huge hugs

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Hey Mel, you wouldn't happen to be awake by any chance? @Lee82

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@Lee82 ??? Please let me know if you are ok

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@Lee82 @Emelia8 , I hope you are both ok my beautiful friends.

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I'm so sorry for worrying you all. I am somewhat ok. I have been in the Short stay unit of the hospital for 2 days and I am hopefully going home tomorrow. It has been a pretty full on couple days and I hadn't had access to my phone until now.

im so sorry Izzy I slipped up. 😢😢

I'm so sorry for disappointing you. I hope you can forgive me hun. I just wasn't thinking straight and things just got too much to handle. Loneliness is a scary thing. I am missing you terribly and wish I could be by your side right now.
how is your therapy going? I hope you are doing ok. Love you always and forever ❤️ @Former-Member

little one I am glad to hear that you don't have ano fractures although a concussion isn't great either hun. Please take care if ppyourself. @outlander 💚

Zoe I hope you are feeling a little better hun. Still thinking of you and sending you another gentle hug. 💜 @Zoe7

Naturelover thanks for tour support I hope you have been well my friend @NatureLover 🧡

Emelia I hope you are ok. Sending you a hug to my friend. @Emelia8 💙

@Fluttershy1 and @Anastasia hooe you both are ok. I'm so sorry I haven't been around. So happy you got your diamond painting myboy. Sending you both a hug. 💛🧡

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Oh sweetheart @Lee82

I am so happy to see you. I'm sorry you're hurting please keep staying safe, we all love you. You are special to me hun ❤️

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Thank you @Anastasia how have you been hun?

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I'm ok beautiful @Lee82

Happier knowing you are safe x

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Oh @Lee82 , am so very sorry and sad for all your terrible pain 😥

So relieved you are safe ❤

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