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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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sitting with you my @Lee82 ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

if you want to chat about anything , i am here with you

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Hey all
Take care

- Hams

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Thanks @Shaz51 that really means a lot. I am just so over this Shaz. It is exhausting. What makes it difficult also is that my MH team have told me there is really not much they can do for me...that is so not reassuring.

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yes @Lee82 my mr shaz was told the same thing xx

keep on keeping on one step at a time my awesome friend

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It is very disheartening and scary when the professionals are lost with what to do. It makes you feel more alone amd a lost course and if they have no answers how am I going to find them.

@Shaz51

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Please my love can you just support a post for me.
I am really worried.
@Former-Member

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How have you been @NatureLover ? I have also been seeing your supports these couple days too. Thank you so much. They always make me feel very loved and supported. I hope your Sunday has been relaxing for you. 💗

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Hi @Lee82 , yes, sometimes I just press the support button when I don't know what to say.


I am so sorry that your MH support team have said that there's not much they can do. What a blow for you 😞 Does that mean you are one of those people who the treatment doesn't work for? I think it's called 'treatment resistant depression' (or whatever illness)?

I was holding out hope that your meds would kick in, as I think you had a dosage increase recently?

I am doing OK thanks, a bit of depression but no SI, so nothing to worry about. 🙂

Sending you much ❤

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To be honest @NatureLover I haven't done much treatment lately. My MH health team are pushing for me to go into hospital and do EMDR treatment but my situation with my boys I just can't do that right now. I am trying to deal with all this whilst I am looking after to young kids as well as homeschooling and looking after a house and being there for Mum and her family. So I understand hospital makes sense but I just can't abandon my responsibilities right now. Yes my meds have changed but they are still not doing much.
I'm sorry to hear your depression is hanging around but happy to hear no SI. That is a win hun.

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Thank you so much gorgeous. I really appreciate you letting me know.
love you forever and a day.

@Former-Member

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