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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I feewl like I have no been a good friend. 😢😢

I hop you can get a realky good night rest tinught beautiful

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@Former-Member
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How are you today beautiful?

i hope you were able to get some rest last night.
just want you to know that I am thinking of you and that I love you unconditionally ❤️
I hope you have kept yourself safe and that the monster didn't show last night. 🙏

@Former-Member

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Good afternoon @Emelia8 how have you been doing hun? How has your weekend been? I have noticed that you have been supporting my posts the last couple days. I just want to say thank you so much. It means a lot to me.
sending you a hug my friend hoping that you are ok.

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Good morning to you too @Lee82 . Yes I have supported your posts ... because of course I support YOU. 🤗💕 Or at least I want to and try to do so. The past few days have been difficult for me, with yesterday being the anniversary of the tragic death of my 11yo niece. So I havent been posting as much yesterday or the day before. Its been pretty hard, because the weather yesterday (strong gusty winds, freezing cold temps) was exactly as it was the same Saturday 5 years ago, when the freak car accident (which claimed Emma's life) occurred. So I have been feeling very sad, and also been very concerned about my brother. Anyway, just remember that I am usually not far away, even if I am not posting, so you can always tag me and I will be here for you. The hug is much appreciated.

Emelia 🌸

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hello and hugs @Emelia8 , @Former-Member , @Lee82 , @MDT

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Oh @Emelia8 I am so sorry to hear about your niece. I can't imagine how difficult yesterday was for you. That is just not fair for that to have happened. I send you some strength hun hoping it will help you get through this rough time.
thank you so very much for support and know that I am here for you as well so I am happy for you to tag me too. I haven't been the best lately either. I have been and still am struggling quite a lot. I just can't seem to get these episodes under control they are running my life. I just want it all to stop. I want it all to end.

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@Shaz51 how you you doing hun?

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i slept in this morning @Lee82 , could not beleive it , I must of needed it after such a long, hard, overwhelming week

so going to take it easy today

how about you xx

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That's great to hear sweets. I hope you have a relaxing Sunday. I am still struggling quite a lot right now. My episodes show no evidence of slowing down so just trying to stay present as best I can.
@Shaz51

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