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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Em, I don't find it selfish at all. Not looking at the downside of having DID, we are extremely lucky that this is how Izzy's mind decided to deal with the trauma as it safe her life as a child and continues to provide a safety net when things aren't so safe. I wish you had a Nikki for tomorrow's appointment or better still I wish I was sitting beside you while you wait and be there when you where done. @Emelia8

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Watcha ya doing beautiful @Lee82

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I am curls up on the couch under my banket.
I just wa t it to stop. It's done I. Long enough.
@Former-Member

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Hey @Lee82 @Former-Member,

I thought I would jump in and say it's great to see how much support you're giving each other tonight, and i'm sure you've also got help outside the forums. It seems like a good time to take a break from this thread. If you feel you're in a crisis and need support tonight it's best to use a helpline-

Lifeline: 13 11 14

Suicide Call Back Service: 1300 659 467

Take care,

Sphinxly🐣

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Baby I am so very sorry I can't help you, it breaks my heart that you are struggling so much. 😞💔

I will be around for a while as I can't take my sp because of the state I am in tonight. Please chat if you are up for it. @Lee82

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Not a problem @Former-Member , will say good night. I hope you have a good evening.

Good night fourm family 💙

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Good night @Former-Member @Lee82 🌟💖

I hope you are both able to settle enough to allow some rest tonight.

I'm confident you will both seek off-forum assistance if its needed. And please do not hesitate to do so.

To know when its time to ask for help is a sign of strength. And both of you have more strength than most people can only ever dream of having.

Be strong and be safe.

Love to you both 💕

Emelia 🌸🐶

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Goodnight @Former-Member 💙

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@Lee82 @Emelia8 💚💓

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Night @Former-Member
Take care my friend
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