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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Former-Member Hey Nikki I simply love your group messages. They are too cute :). Wishing you a beautiful Wednesday. Love peaxx

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Hi there @Former-Member 💖🌟

I read your early morning post to the Worry Room thread 😔

Sounds like its been a long and difficult night for you. Though I'm hoping you finally managed to get some sleep. I recall you said you were unable to take your usual night meds last night? Not easy.

I want you to know that I am sitting with you, willing you to get through this. 🌺 🐶 💕 And very confident that you will. 😄

How are you going this morning @Lee82 ? Sending some love your way too. 💝

Em 🌸🐶

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Morning Em, it was a very long night probably managed 3 hours of sleep. When I am in a heightened state like I was last night if I have my regular meds it makes me worse and I fight them so very hard. Panic and anxiety about not being in control of my mind and body and not knowing what maybe happening around me and/or too me is phenomenal. This recovery journey is not for the faint hearted. Thank you for your message this morning and sitting with me.

How are you holding up this morning? Hoping that your worry about your appointment today is manageable. I will be in and out all day and will be thinking of you. @Emelia8

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Thank you @Former-Member 💖🐶

Em 🌸

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Just took a selfie 😂😂😂😂

Good morning fourm family, I hope your day is kind to you and with whatever you have to do please know someone is thinking of you and wishing the best for you.

💝🌸 @Lee82 🌸💝

💖🐶 @Emelia8 🐶💖

💖👸 @Bunniekins 👸💖

💖🐖 @MDT 🐖💖

💖🦖 @outlander 🦖💖

💖🍀 @NatureLover 🍀💖

💖🦋 @Eve7 🦋💖

💖🍎 @Appleblossom 🍎💖

💖🌈 @Shaz51 🌈💖

💖💐 @Maggie 💐💖

💖🐜 @Ant7 🐜💖

💖👩🏼‍🏫 @Zoe7 👩🏼‍🏫💖

💖🌹 @eth 🌹💖

💖🌺 @Former-Member 🌺💖

💖☃️ @Snowie ☃️💖

A huge thank you to all the admin staff and @Former-Member for their efforts to give us this space to be able to connect and feel like we belong somewhere. Hoping that you too have a good day

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Hey @Former-Member
Good to see you this morning 🙂

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Good to see you also friend @MDT

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@Former-Member wrote:

Not looking at the downside of having DID, we are extremely lucky that this is how Izzy's mind decided to deal with the trauma as it safe her life as a child and continues to provide a safety net when things aren't so safe.


I am so glad this is the case, @Former-Member .

I'm sorry you had an awful night...hoping today goes gently for you if possible.

Same for you, @Lee82 ...

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That's the cutest picture @Former-Member - made me smile 😃👍 Thank you. Hope all's well - I feel spring in the air 🌷🌞🌷

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Thank you my love. I really hope your body has settled down from yesterday. I will be in and out today and am just a tag away if you want to chat. Love 3000 to infinity and beyond Always @Lee82

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