Darkness

I'm really sorry you don't feel able to talk about it with a counsellor, @Lee82 , as it might help

@NatureLover I feel like I Wouk d be judged. I think there is donething wrong eith my mind.

I am quite certain @Lee82 that you have absolutely nothing to feel ashamed about. I think it is quite common that our physical response does not always accurately reflect our emotional state. Please stop beating yourself up about something you had/have no control over.

If you do not feel safe tonight Lee, please promise me you will call a helpline, and follow their advice. 🌺 I ask this of you because I care about you and am concerned for your safety. ♥

@Former-Member @NatureLover 💖⭐

Emelia 🌸🐶

My love you can't help it, your body is reacting to how stressed it is. Being a panic state all, well from last night really it doesn't know how to cope with all that is happening. There is nothing wrong with your mind, you are coping the best way you how. Loving you always. @Lee82

@NatureLover , I am pretty lucky, that don't know many ex husbands that would come back to become full time carer for the wife they left. I am glad you are ok.

@Emelia8 , wondering how you are beautiful Em. I hope hubby's appointment went well. Sending you gentle hugs.

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@NatureLover I feel like I Wouk d be judged. I think there is donething wrong eith my mind.

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I'm so sorry to hear you feel that way, @Lee82 😞 I hope you can find some relief.

It's my time to log off...sending you much care and wishes for some healing, @Former-Member and @Lee82 ...

Goodnight @NatureLover

@Lee82, are you still around?

@Emelia8 💖💖💖💐

I am okay for now thanks Nikki @Former-Member 🧡

Got hubbys medical appointment out of the way pretty quickly, and all good. After that I lodged his income tax return online. Then started mine ... got some more info I need to get sorted on mine, so havent finished it yet. But I want to get mine done soon because I am expecting a nice refund this year. 💰 Other than that, I did some more of my diamond painting. Called my Dad who is not well right now. Had a good chat with him and organised another Dr appointment for him. I will call my brother this evening ... a difficult time for him right now, and I worry about him. It is the anniversary of his 11yo daughter's death this Saturday. 5 years has flown by, and so much has changed since. 😢 Izzy / Nikki ... I am so grateful on your behalf that your husband is such a good, caring man. There is no doubt at all that you deserve that. If it were not for him watching over you, I would be seriously concerned for your safety.

@Lee82 ... have you done any of your diamond painting recently I wonder?

Em 🌸🐶

I am glad hubby's appointment went well and quick. I have t even look at my tax yet, better full my finger out. Happy that you will get a refund, I will probably end up with a debt again 😞

Sorry your dad is unwell love, though it must be nice to be able to call him and have a good chat. Oh my I couldn't even begin to imagine the pain for your brother and you. What a terrible lost. Things definitely would be the same for anyone who loved that little angel. I am so sorry for your loss 😞

I am glad that he is here most of the time😏 amd the time I am not greatful is the times I need him to be here the most. I would also be very concerned for my safety if he wasn't here. @Emelia8

I'm sorry Izzy has needed to retreat back into hibernation after a difficult session with Nat today @Former-Member 😔 Though its great Nikki, that you are willing to so ably step in as and when needed. ⭐

I have an apt tomorrow with my psych. I wish I had a Nikki who would step in for me, as you do for Izzy 💕 But thats silly, selfish and very shortsighted of me of course. I can never understate the enormous difficulties you must all face every day in living with DID. 😔

How are you going @Lee82

and goodnight @NatureLover

Emelia 🌸

Not good @Emelia8