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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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No I am happy to be focused on you as you have some serious stuff happening. Mel, do you plan on drinking alcohol tonight? @Lee82

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Please just let me know that you are safe?

no I donr plan in drinking tonight

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@Emelia8 💗

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I am happy to hear that Mel. Yes I am safe, hubby is with me. Izzy got straight into some tough stuff and the session was emotional and at one point she basically disassociate for a bit and none could come through to talk to Nat. We went over by half an hour because Nat was worried about our safety and she won't let us leave until she is satisfied that it will be ok. @Lee82

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Concerned for you both, @Former-Member and @Lee82 ...

Do you think you need to contact a helpline, @Lee82 ?

Hi Nikki...

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Lovely to see you Nature 🍀😊 I am extremely worried about @Lee82 😞 Thank you for your concern but I am safe and being closing watched by hubby because of how bad we are tonight.

How are you doing tonight my most lovely friend. @NatureLover

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Thank you Nikki, you are so lovely...I'm sorry things are so bad for you tonight. 😞 I'm glad you have hubby there to care for you. He seems pretty special to me.

Yes, it seems @Lee82 is in a bad place...I am hoping she might get some help offline if she needs it...

I am OK thanks.

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J am releved to know that hun.
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@NatureLover I can't talk about it. I am so ashamed 😢

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Oh @Lee82 💔

I am so sorry you are ashamed about something bad that happened to you 😥

I'm worried about how much you're suffering with it...

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I can't controj how my body is reacting to the flashbacjs. What my body is doing what is is shameful

@NatureLover @Former-Member

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