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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I don't understand what's happening

@Former-Member

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You poor thing. I am so very sorry you have this added stress. You are neither dirty or disgusting, your body is reacting to extreme stress. I am not going anywhere. Love 3000 babe @Lee82

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I just want it it stop. I can't control it nikki. I am so tored

@Former-Member

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I know babe, wishing I could be there with you. How bad is it? Do you think maybe a trip to the hospital maybe needed? You have been in panic all day and that is not good for your body? I know your first reaction will be no way but think about it for a bit especially when you are so very scared of what is happening. @Lee82

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my body is in heightened mode if that makes sense. It's reacting constantly. I can't go to the hospital babe. I have no one to take me and it is way too disturbing

@Former-Member

what do I di

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Hi @Lee82
I am going to send you an email to check in 🙂

Kind regards
Peregrinefalcon

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Honey, it's because it's way to disturbing that you should go. Call an ambulance if you have too. I am very, no extremely worried my love. Please whatever you do don't stop talking @Lee82

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I can't bring myself to talk about it hun.

@Former-Member

it makes ne sick

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Ok, well then you need to make sure you stay hydrated because your body is losing too much fluid. Dehydration can be bad as well.

did you want to chat about something else @Lee82

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How are you doi g?
I'm so sorry hun I havw been selfish just talking about ne.

@Former-Member

I am concerned about you too after youe session with nat

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