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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I just need to get away from my house.
@outlander @NatureLover @Emelia8 @Shaz51 @Former-Member

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Please @Lee82 , can you pull over and sit in your car to calm down? I'm worried you are feeling reckless... Your kids need their mum, no-one else will do, @Lee82

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@Lee82 big breath my friend

It is hard but you are loved , can you do something from your coping box

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sitting with you @Lee82 can you pull over and try the helpline again?

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I haven stopped at the pond near nt hiusze. I am still on hild. This is redicivnjh.
@NatureLover @outlander @Emelia8 @Shaz51

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Well done for pulling over @Lee82 🙂

I can see you're having a panic attack... Can you please tell me 2 things you see in your car?

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i know @Lee82 sometimes its so hard when we have to wait and not connect straight away. im really glad you have stopped at least.

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Holding you my @Lee82 xxxxx

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Thats okay @Lee82 ... dont hang up on the Helpline. Hold the line and wait as long as it takes. In the meantime, you have all of us here to help you through what sounds like a panic attack right now.

You need to control your breathing, count slowly as you breath in and out. You do not want to hyperventilate. If you need it .. do you have a paper bag? If so, breath into it .. watch it inflate and deflate as you breath.

Take a look around you? Whats happening? Is it raining, sunny, windy? Are there any birds around, cars, pedestrians out walking perhaps? Count the cars as you see them. Note the colours. How many people in each car? You need to do something to distract your thoughts right now. Can you do that for me?

This will pass @Lee82 , and you will be okay again. Try to let your emotions wash right over you, dont allow them settle within you. If you need one of the Moderators to help you while you await the Helpline ... you can ask them. @Former-Member @Former-Member

Emelia 🌸

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I am so sorry everyone. I have worries you all. I did not mean to do that. I am ok. I am sitting in my car and I am still on hold and I will stay on hold as long as it takes to get through. I will check in again with you all later. Again I am so sorry. I feel terrible for worrying you. Please forgive me. I don't know what I would without my forum family. 🙏🙏

@NatureLover @Shaz51 @outlander @Emelia8

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