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Darkness

Unknown userMember23 Apr 2020, 7:03 pm AEST

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Emelia8Senior Contributor09 Aug 2020, 3:36 pm AEST

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Thanks @NatureLover ... yes I am about to go get stuck into my diamond painting now. Just finished a cuppa tea and feeling a little more settled.

That sounds pretty bad weather you're expecting down your way @outlander ... really hope you stay indoors and remain safe.

@Lee82 ... have you called a Helpline yet? If yes, I hope you arent kept waiting for too long. I know how frustrating that can be, when you make the big decision to call ... only to wait in line for way too long. If you're up to it, come and have a cuppa with me ... still tea in the pot if you're a tea drinker. Then we can get struck into some DP work.

@Former-Member ... thinking of you very much throughout the day, and hoping you're feeling much better. Will be looking out for you later in the day. Dont want to disturb you now though, so definitely no pressure to be here now. It was great that we all saw you for a time this morning. And that was very much appreciated.

Emelia 🌸

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NatureLoverSenior Contributor09 Aug 2020, 3:38 pm AEST

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@outlander I actually didn't know it was in some pastas 😞 I didn't use to worry about the "may contain", but with your severe intolerance I guess you need to. I think it's a good idea to make a folder of information while you're still researching and learning what you can have.

The flooding sounds bad...when is the rain due to stop? I hope tomorrow?

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Emelia8Senior Contributor09 Aug 2020, 3:39 pm AEST

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@Lee82 ... we were posting at the same time with your latest post. I'm glad to hear you remain safe, and will call a Helpline. When you say "I am leaving", I am interpreting that you mean only for now, and that you will return when you are feeling less anxious. I look forward to talking again a little later. And perhaps its appropriate to gently remind you of your promise to @Former-Member .

Emelia 🌸

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outlanderSenior Contributor09 Aug 2020, 3:40 pm AEST

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@Lee82 what do you mean your leaving?
i know you said your safe but it doesnt really sound like you are atm

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Lee82Senior Contributor09 Aug 2020, 3:44 pm AEST