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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Good lady @Lee82 ... sounds like you're through the worst of the panic attack at least.

No need to be sorry btw. 😊💖 I'm sure you would do the same for any one of us under similar circumstances.

I hope you are not waiting on hold for too much longer, and that they are helpful once you finally get someone.

I totally get your comment "I don't know what I would without my forum family". I felt hopelessly lost and alone for the whole time I was away recently. 😔

Emelia 🌸

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Am so glad you seem a bit calmer, @Lee82

I hope it doesn't take too long to connect with the helpline. Here with you while you wait... ❤

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@Lee82 has your panic attack improved a little? your writing is better now. im really glad that youll be staying on hold until you get through to someone.

1300 659 467 is another helpline as well and who may also ring back later in the day to check on you as well if your finding lifeline or whichever one your using atm is taking a while

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Hi @Lee82

It sounds like you are having trouble getting through to a help line. Here are some options you might like to try:

Lifeline 13 11 14

Suicide Call Back 1300 659 467

Beyond Blue1300 22 46 36

Beyond Blue Corona virus hotline 1800 512 349

Keep persisting Lee. You are worth it.

Whitehawk

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I am so sorry Mel, I have seemed to have missed whatever is happening for you right now. Please check in when you can. @Lee82

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I have just could you with what is happening Mel, I am so sorry things have gotten out of hand today. Did you manage to get through to a helpline yet? Honey I am trying hard to control my worries about you and if you are actually safe, please remember our promise. I need you as well as the boys. Love you 3000 @Lee82

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How are you feeling this afternoon @Former-Member ? 😀💖

Em 🌸

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Hey Em, I have been asleep for most of the afternoon I am just so very tried right now. How about you? Have you had an ok day? @Emelia8

@Lee82 💝💝💝💝💝

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Its good that you were able to sleep @Former-Member . It was a long/late and worrying night for you last night. And I expect if you have a chest infection, as suspected, that will make you tired too.

Had an okay day here, yes. Got some washing done and dried, before more rain comes in tonight. We dont have a drier, so need fine weather. 🌞

And this afternoon I kept company with @Lee82 , and a few others, here.

Right now, I am relaxing and doing some diamond painting. You can see the pic I'm working on if you go back a couple/few pages here. I was sharing with Lee earlier.

Soon I need to be starting some dinner preparations.

Em 🌸🐶

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I have spoken to a helpline. I am so very tired. I have organised for mum to have the boys for a couple hours when Jules drops them off. I just can't deal with anything right now. I am going to try and have a sleep in my car. Don't feel like going home just yet. Will check in again later.
@Emelia8 @outlander @NatureLover @Shaz51

Thank you everyone for your support. 💗

love you always my sis. ❤️ @Former-Member ❤️

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