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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Lee sweetie please talk to me. My pain meds have kicked in I can't feel anything. He is right beside me and not going anywhere so I am very safe. Don't shut me out.

@Lee82

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please don't feel like I'm shutting you out babe. I'm just trying to be mindful and I'm worried about you.
@Former-Member

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Right back at you my love. I am very worried about you. But I will leave you be and if you are up for general chat I will see you on the other thread.

never forgot how important you are @Lee82

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Hey babe I'm just checking in to see how you are doing this morning...

did you manage to get some sleep?
@Former-Member

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Morning Lee, slept for a while, second sp always knocks me out. How are you this morning, did you get any sleep? Sending you huge hugs @Lee82

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So glad you were able to get a good night sleep babe. That great. So how you feeling this morning?
@Former-Member

I didn't get much sleep last night

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@Lee82 , sorry babe I thought today was Monday so the boys will still be with there father. Still very fuzzy from the meds

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That's ok babe...I haven't heard from the boys yet which is a good thing. mr12 always messages me if there is a problem

@Former-Member

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You ok sweets?
@Former-Member

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I have spent the last 20 minutes trying to find the right words, trying to find a away to help you keep the monster away, but there is nothing and that makes me sad😞 at one point I was going to ask if you could picture a 5 year old with blonde hair, hazel eyes holding a bowl of ice cream sitting with you but I know that when your are at that point nothing else matters but getting that release. I really wish that there was a way to help you babe. @Lee82

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