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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I don't want to upset you anymore than you are. I am safe please don't worry Sean hasn't left my side. I am over the pain and the fight. Sorry my love, I am not very good company right now. I am flitting around here pretending all is good but it's so hard just to breathe right now.

@Lee82 , how are you sweets

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Like you said before babe we wouldn't be good friends if we didn't worry about each other. You don't need to be good company babe. I will leave you alone if that is what you want but I am happy and wanting to be here for you if you want to keep talking. We can just chitchat if that will help or I am here to listen to whatever you want to talk about. Anything.
please don't worry about upsetting me. Your safe and that is all that matters in this moment right now. I want to keep you that way and maybe give you a place where you can let go of whatever it is want to let go of.
@Former-Member

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I will be back later @Lee82 i have to go pretend everything is ok some more while I try an eat dinner with the girls and Sean. 💜

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Ok babe...love you always ❤️
@Former-Member

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Hey honey. How you doing?
@Former-Member

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Moving on right now. I have tagged you in the tough times thread sweetie. @Lee82

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Ok babe

@Former-Member

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@Lee82 ,

Love you 3000

just want a distraction, I am not blowing you off I hope you know that

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Anything that's gonna help you babe.
@Former-Member

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Please are you ok babe @Lee82

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