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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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love waterfalls @Lee82

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Naww you are gorgeous. Thank you so much babe. It has been a good day. We are at a children's park now letting the kids run around for a while. The weather is unusually warm so just making the most of it.
how are you feeling today hun?
love you unconditionally.
@Former-Member

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Yea this one was beautiful @Shaz51 and not too far from where I live too. So peaceful to look at.

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I hope you are committing this day hard and fast in your memory my sweet, for when you think about not being a good mumma you can look back and see what a great day you where able to have with your boys when you where ok. Have confidence that there will be more of these ok days and more new memories to keep you going. You are so amazing love so much Mel.

@Lee82

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@Lee82 wrote:

Took the kids to see a waterfall today. It was a really nice day. Weather is beautiful. Feeling ok today. Haven't felt this ok for a very long time. Hopefully it last.


Am so very happy to hear this, @Lee82 ! Yay!

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I am so very happy for you @Former-Member That is the best news and I hope you have more beautiful days with those beautiful animals.

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💙🧡💙

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So pleased to hear you have had some joy in your day @Lee82 I love a good waterfall so thank you for the images

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Thank you so much my love. Just wish these types of days were here more often. I am so bloody tired I could sleep for a week...lol it has taken a lot out of me.
How has your Saturday been hun? I realise you avoided that question so if you don't feel like answering it that is ok. I completely understand just know that I am here for you always.
@Former-Member

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Thank you so much @NatureLover and @Zoe7

it has been a good day but now I am buggered! Lol

i hope your Saturday has been relaxing with a little sparkle in it. 🌟 💗

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I have been catching up on rest today @Lee82 I wanted to get out in the garden but I am just too buggered - might see if I can tomorrow but not putting any pressure on myself as looking after myself this weekend is the priority.

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