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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I promise I will not break our promise. I have the boys here with me so I am reasonably safe.
thank you for being here with me tonight nikki. I really truly appreciate it. Feeling kind of lost and alone at the moment so having you with me makes me feel less lonely. I am doing my best to hold on to that hope babe. It just gets real hard sometimes.
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Thanks @outlander , sorry I haven't popped over to your thread to catch up with your news I am just aware that I don't really have anything much to offer too many at the moment. Thank you for your support and check ins. 💜💜💜💜💜

I get your loneliness sweetheart, and if I can help you even a little then I will sit with you for as long as I can. It is really hard some days to hold on to hope and when things are especially this dark. But it's always there.

"Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light"

Sending you all my love and a little strength my love. @Lee82

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you dont have to apologise at all @Former-Member and i totally understand. its just really good to see you pop up on this thread talking to Lee. i know your both missing each other quite abit too. its lovely too see. im sorry that its so hard for you both though. lifes really not fair sometimes and i wish that one day there will be some light and breathing space soon

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I would really like that beautiful. Thank you for being so amazing.
so do you feel up to answering my questions? It's ok if you don't want to right now. Happy to sit with you. Love you more than words can ever describe babe.
Also that is a great saying babe. I just wish I had someone irl to help me turn the light on.
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Hey @outlander thank you got popping in and for your support. How has your day been hun?

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I will answer question you ask if I can my love. @Lee82

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How is your night going? How are you feeling hun?
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I am very tried because of meds, and a little sick. I a struggling with pain and am emotionally exhausted. My night is ok, hubby and I are sitting outside where I feel safest so far so good. @Lee82

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That is so nice to hear you sitting outside with hubby. Why are you in pain hun? Yea the meds are going to make you feel sick for a while babe. It is not fun at all. I feel you and understand. I am going through the nausea too and the stomach cramps.
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I'm sorry babe. You don't need to answer that question. Do you have any plans for tomorrow? How is your dad going?
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