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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I am sorry you are in additional discomfort honey.
I am not sure I can explain why I am in pain without getting myself in trouble. Needless to say it's not good and I am regretting my method. @Lee82

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That's ok hun. I think I can read between the lines. I wish I could take all your pain away hun. 😢

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I am really sorry I have to leave you now babe, night meds have really kicked in. But if I am awake early I will check in and see if you are still awake. I wish there was a way to take all your hurt away as well my love. God I miss chatting with you. Love you 3000 to infinity and beyond Always and unconditionally @Lee82

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I really miss chatting with you too beautiful. I really hope you get a full nights sleep babe. Love you always and forever ❤️
@Former-Member

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Hey Mel are you still awake? I am

but I am not sure for how long. Love you sweetness @Lee82

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Good morning Princess Pea, is is Hong you a day of beautiful blessings my friend.
💖👸 @Bunniekins 👸💖

Good morning Apple, I hope yo are asleep right now and that your Friday is an easy one for you.
💖🍎 @Appleblossom 🍎💖

💖🌵 @NatureLover 🌵💖 thank you my beautiful friend.

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@Former-Member Sweetheart I hope you are okay now and are asleep dreaming soft and gentle dreams. Take good care of yourself. Love peaxxx

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Hey hun. Sorry I missed you. I was asleep bit now I am awake. I also am not too sure for how long. I hope you are sound asleep again babe. Love you always and forever.
@Former-Member 💗

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Sleep tag, your it. 😂 I passed out on the lounge on my front deck again. Might just start my night here since I always end up here anyways. Glad you got a little sleep @Lee82

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Hey @Former-Member I finally got some sleep last night. The pain relief helped and my back is feeling more manageable today. I am looking forward to my Art day with the kids but more so that it is Friday and I can get some more rest in the next couple of days. I have quite a lot of work to get done as well but will pace myself over the weekend, resting when I need to.

Sending you love and hugs for today ...and you too @Lee82 I hope to catch up more with you both over the weekend

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