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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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You are a very special person in my life gorgeous and I wouldn't be a good friend if I didn't notice. There's been a few times I've noticed but wasn't sure if I should mention anything.
I am trying to be mindful of my negative self talk and I am trying to change that but it's proving to be difficult. The monster is out early today and I am trying to contain it.
@Former-Member

how you feeling honey?

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Gentle baby steps honey 💖 @Lee82

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You didn't answer my question babe. You ok?
@Former-Member

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Honey, I am ok, not great but ok. I can't describe it really but it's uneasy. Sean has to leave for a bit and that is a little concerning, His mum called and she is really unwell but won't call an ambulance so he has to go check on her and work out weather he takes her to the hospital or just wait a see how she is. @Lee82

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Are you going to be alone or are your daughters around?
honey I am happy to stay with you for as long as it takes if that will help.
maybe you can do some cooking while he is gone or I can do some colouring with you if you like. Or we can watch a movie together.
im here babe if you need.
❤️ @Former-Member ❤️

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I will be alone, girls have gone to visit their dad and brother. @Lee82

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Can I sit with you my love?
@Former-Member

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Thanks babe, I will let you know when he leaves. He seems reluctant to leave, but he is on the phone with his mum now. @Lee82

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Ok I am here whenever you are ready. Love you babe.
@Former-Member

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You ok honey?
@Former-Member

im a little worried

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