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Darkness

Unknown userMember23 Apr 2020, 7:03 pm AEST

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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outlanderSenior Contributor26 July 2020, 8:42 pm AEST

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thats ok @Lee82 well done for not managing to avoid a panic attack. you done very well.
watching friends with the boys sounds good. im watching mrs browns boys.

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Unknown userMember26 July 2020, 8:46 pm AEST

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@Lee82 , you are to kind my love. I promise to stop being so hard on myself when you promise the same. You are an Incredibly strong and passionate woman and strong then you give yourself credit for. I have been awake for 20 hours now and I think I can finally sleep. I really hope to chat with you tomorrow. I love you 3000

@outlander , Good night little one. Thank you so much for you support it means a lot. I hope you managed some decent sleep tonight

@NatureLover , good night my beautiful friend. Rest well

@Bunniekins , I hope your day with your kidults went well and you enjoyed yourself. Sweet dream princess pea

@Eve7 , goodnight gorgeous lady, I hope you have a peaceful night.

Goodnight also @Snowie @Zoe7 @Sans911 @Fluttershy1 @Shaz51 @Maggie @Angels333

@Former-Member, I have 24 hour a day support at the moment so I will be safe. Thank you for your concern. Hope you have a restful night.

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outlanderSenior Contributor26 July 2020, 8:46 pm AEST

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hey @Former-Member im so sorry its tough right now. the panic attacks and then having to explain whats happenening as well that would be so hard.

i agree with Lee that they must feel comfortable around you to ask questions. i have no one in my life who i would even consider talking to . im sorry it was triggerring for you though. perhaps if you were aware of what they would ask you you might have been able to handle it better but we dont always know what people will say. plus the sirens on top wouldnt have been helpful at all.

Can i ask if you might be on some medications to help dull your anxiety abit or a prn to take when you are feeling very anxious?