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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I hope today is a better one @Former-Member . Sending some 💞💞💞

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Good morning beautiful, it was nice waking up to your check in as I was getting a little worried, so thank you. I hope today you will be a little more ok then yesterday. Hope Mr13 and Mr9 are enjoying their holidays. Look forward to chatting to you at some point soon. Missing you heaps and loving you always Mel. @Lee82

Thank you for your kind words @Maggie , @Zoe7 and @Faith-and-Hope . @outlander I hope you managed to get some decent sleep when you got home and that the sibling sitting wasn't to much for you. Kids can be so mean with their words, it is sometimes hard to judge weather they just aren't thinking when they speak or if they intend to hurt you with their words. My son was only around 10 when he use to tell me after seeing a Jenny Craig or Weight Watchers ad that maybe I should do that. He wasn't being mean but it still hurt, I eventually explained how it made me feel and he stopped which I was great full for as his father use to bully me because of my weight.

Wishing everyone a gentle Tuesday @Maggie @Lee82 @Zoe7 @outlander @Faith-and-Hope @Sans911 @Shaz51 @frog @MDT @Eve7 @Lee71 @Former-Member @Snowie @The-red-centaur @Eden1919 @Bunniekins @SpiderLady @mudsum @Purplerain @Fluttershy1

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Good morning @Former-Member Another 'go slow' day for me today - getting in some much needed rest/sleep, watching a little tv and plenty of Toby cuddles. I will go out tonight when I get paid to do a supermsrket shop and thn do the rest tomorrow before I head to my parrents' place ...it was my Dad's birthday yesterday and I went to my sister's for dinner for him but forgot his card. Tobes will love the trip and he will get to play with one of their dogs so that will mske him extra happy

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Beautiful @Zoe7, I am very happy to hear that you are getting in that much needed rest. Toby cuddles sound perfect, I wish my Nics was a cuddly puppy. Happy birthday to your dad for yesterday and I hope you and Toby have a nice safe drive to your parents place tomorrow.

I have been keeping something very close to my chest for just over a week now as I am scared if I say it out loud it won't happen. I can't remember if I tagged you when I told our friends about sending the family a message about my MH issues and where I am at. From that my step mum and dad where filled in by one of the Aunts and my step mum send me a message asking if I wanted to see them. So next week for the first time in 15+ years I am going to see my dad and my mum. Thinking about it brings me to tears and causes a lot of anxiety, I am hoping that after my first visit I might settle a little.

Hoping Tobs cuddles are plentiful and your day peaceful my friend. 💜Nikki

💖🌸 @Lee82 🌸💖 missing you gorgeous

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I have been keeping something very close to my chest for just over a week now as I am scared if I say it out loud it won't happen...

So next week for the first time in 15+ years I am going to see my dad and my mum. Thinking about it brings me to tears and causes a lot of anxiety, I am hoping that after my first visit I might settle a little.


Oh gosh, Nikki - that's huge news. Well done for having the courage to say it out loud. There sure is a lot going on for you at the moment! I will be keeping my fingers crossed for your first visit with your parents in 15+ years, and hoping that it goes well. Sending you hugs... @Former-Member

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Thanks @NatureLover , it's exciting and nerve racking at the same time as well as super emotional.

💖🌸 @Lee82 🌸💖 😔

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@Former-Member Hey sweetie xxx

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Hey princess pea, how are you doing lovely lady? 💜Nikki. 💜👸 @Bunniekins 👸💜

I love 3000 to infinity and beyond Always Mel.
💖🌸 @Lee82 🌸💖

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that sounds exciting! @Former-Member i hope that the visit goes well and you feel less anxious when you get there.
i hope today has been ok for you too 🌻🦖

@Lee82 @NatureLover 💐❤
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