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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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hello @NatureLover , @Former-Member , @outlander , @Lee82

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Hey gorgeous. I'm so sorry you haven't been getting much sleep. Are you taking SP at night?
Im sorry you missed out on your brother in laws birthday bbq. Did Sean go? Glad you are able to get some peace in your painting room. Anything new you can share? I would love to see some more stuff.
@Former-Member

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@NatureLover @outlander @Shaz51 Hope your day has been ok and I hope you have a peaceful night tonight.

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Thanks, @Lee82 ...right back at you 🙂

How's your anxiety been today?

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It's been not too bad today @NatureLover . Still pretty high but at least it was manageable however it's now the night time and that's when it starts to get a lot worse.

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Sorry @Lee82 , I fell asleep last night before I saw your reply... I'm glad yesterday the anxiety was manageable, but I saw you had a panic attack last night on the other thread 😞

You're right about nights being worse than days. I really hope today is better for you.

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You are a wonderful, worthwhile person @Former-Member Please listen to the truth about yourself xo

💙🧡💙

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@Lee82 @Former-Member 💙💜🤍

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You are absolutely NONE of those things beautiful. I know it is insanely hard to think of yourself as anything other than what you have said but I am telling you right here right now that none of that is true. NONE OF IT!! You are a gentle, beautiful caring, kind loving person. Someone I have grown to love and care about so very much. Someone who has shown me compassion, support, love, beauty, understanding, truth and geez so so much more hun. I really do wish you could try and change your distorted thinking of yourself but I know just how hard it is to change the way we think of our selves.
sittong here with you babe loving you unconditionally.
❤️ @Former-Member ❤️

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💗beautiful girl! 💗

missing you 😔

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