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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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You deserve to be more than just safe my friend. You deserve the world. You deserve happiness and peace and love and friendship and a bright future. These are all the things I wish for you beautiful. Every single day I hope you will some day find all this although you certainly have a true friend in me and of course from all our other forum family members.
I will always be here for you no matter what babe. I will always love you and support you my beautiful friend

@Former-Member

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Hey nikki. How you doing today hun? How was your night?
just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you and that I love you very much ❤️ @Former-Member

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Hey friends, it's been a day here 😞 but I am finally in my painting room and mood is slowly shifting. 😊 Just want to check in and see how you all are. Thinking of you all, hoping that your day has been ok.

Hey Sherry, really hoping you will see this message. While we where out today we saw a car sticker that had butterflies and it said "protected by butterflies" Tears ran down my cheek, Kimmy was sad when asked what was wrong she simply said "I miss my Sherry"💜💜💜💜💜

@Lee82 @outlander @NatureLover @Shaz51 @Zoe7 @Sans911 @Snowie @Maggie @Fluttershy1 @Zoe7 and everyone else I haven't tagged. 💜Nikki

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Hi Nikki, thanks for checking in @Former-Member

Hi @Lee82

Hoping you're both as OK as possible. Glad you're in your painting room, Nikki 🙂

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Hey beautiful, we must have been typing at the same time. 😂 I have been thinking about you all day along with our other special friends here. My night was rough, in the last two days we have had about six hours of sleep so pretty wrecked. I couldn't go to my brother in law's birthday bbq because I am on edge because of lack of sleep.

How are you my gorgeous Mel? Loving you always. @Lee82

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@Former-Member 🦖🌻

@Lee82 💐💛

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💖🌵 @NatureLover 🌵💖 Hope you have had a good day. 💜Nikki

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💖🦖 @outlander 🦖💖 Thinking if you little one. 💜 Nikki

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@Former-Member wrote:

💖🌵 @NatureLover 🌵💖 Hope you have had a good day. 💜Nikki


Thanks, it hasn't been too bad, except for miserable Melbourne weather. I wish I had your Queensland weather, and that beautiful beach you've posted pictures of!

Nikki @Former-Member

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thinking of you too @Former-Member

@NatureLover
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