Darkness

Good evening @Lee82

It must be so hard for you tonight Lee feeling so lonely and scared. Is there someone off the forums you can reach out to for a conversation? Are you able to use the help lines where you can talk to a supportive person?

• Lifeline: 13 11 14 (24/7)
• Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 (24/7)
• Samaritans: 135 247 (24/7)

Please take care,

Whitehawk

aww thanks @Former-Member but I don't think you realise that those same attributes both you and @Lee82 have and it is very much appreciated even when you cannot see that for yourselves.

@Lee82 I do understand that postiion Hon. My closest connections are on here - many of them have been developed over years and they mran the world to me. I do however understand your longing to have a face to face conversation or a hug and truly wish you had that in your life. On the other side though - it is here that we can be open and honest and have those connections through shared experiences, knowledge and compassion for each other - and that means something. No it is not the same as being with someone in person but in a lot of ways it is even better because we know we have found kindred spirits who will support us through thick and thin. I value that greatly in my life and very much hope you do too. Work with what we have to help us and not what we wish to have until that does come our way.

Me too @Former-Member 😔

I have been thinking about you so much lately babe. How is kimmy doing? Give her a cuddle for me. I'm also a little worried about Izzy. It's been a long time since she has been around. How is she doing? Tell them all I love them so very much and wish I could be there for them all.

Thanks @Zoe7 you are so right. I agree with everything you have said. It's just hard. Everything is just so very very hard. I don't know what to do anymore. I am just so lost and fed up Zoe. I'm frustrated and tired. I'm so sorry I keep repeating myself. I just don't know what to say.
anyway how you feeling about school holidays coming up? My boys are on holidays now.

@Former-Member Thank you for your concern. No I don't have anyone To talk to outside of this forum.
Everyone here is all I have.

Days like this, feeling as you do, are so incredibly hard Hon. It is not a time you need to make sense of anything or find solutions - it is simply a matter of getting through @Lee82 If repeating yourself helps then go ahead - they are very, very hard feelings to be sitting with - I certainly know that from experience. I also know there is very little anyone can say that will lift those feelings but having people around that care did make a difference for me. We may just be names on a screen but our care and support is real - and you have that here Hon ...one step at a time whenever you can do that - for now sitting here with you is what we have and happy to be here

Poor Kimmy is still struggling, the new meds have really done a number on our nightmares. Turning everyone and everything safe into unsafe. She is also struggling with the lost of one of our friends here. As much as she is connected to the adult brain and the adult understands the reason our friend can no longer be on here, she is still essential a five yr old girl. It's not easy for her. She made me screen shot the last message so she can keep her friend. 😞 @Lee82

Please tell kimmy I am always here for her whenever she wants to talk to me. I am sending her a gentle hug. 💕
can they give you something for the nightmares babe? I use to be on a medication that helped to not exactly stop the nightmares but stop the effects it was having on me.
I know who you are talking about and I am sad too she has decided not to be here anymore although I'm not sure what has happened to make her make that decision.
I absolutely hate that you feel so unsafe. That makes me just so angry and it really hurts my heart to hear that Nikki. Sending you all my love beautiful and I hope you can find a way to feel safe again. There is nothing worse.
@Former-Member

Well it's that time of night when my night meds kick me in the butt😞 I hope you all have a peaceful night and get some much needed rest. Thank you all for your ongoing support and friendship. 💜Nikki

@Zoe7 @Bunniekins @outlander @NatureLover @Fluttershy1 @Snowie @Shaz51 @Maggie @Eve7 amd anyone else passing through.

Mel, please know that we are all thinking of you and we want you to keep yourself safe for us. Love you 3000 to infinity and beyond Always. Good night my love. @Lee82

Yes it is very hard @Zoe7. I hate feeling like this and I wish I didn't feel anymore. I just want to be numb all of the time. Numb to everything. That way I dont have to feel hurt, pain, sadness, confusion, anger, anxious, worry, stress, and all the other feelings I feel on a daily bases. It f**king sucks.
Im so sorry. I hate feeling sorry for myself and I know that is how this is all sounding right now.