FORUMS

Connect with people who understand what you are going through, seek advice and surround yourself with support. We're free, anonymous, and professionally moderated 24/7.

  • 47,612Members
  • 1,358,869Posts
  • 1,400,000Visitors
Something’s not right

Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

6906 replies

1,811 - 1,820 of 6,906

In response to: Darkness

Re: Darkness

Thank you for your support @NatureLover I am so sorry to hear that you have been experiencing terrible fears these past few days hun. I hope things get better for you soon. Thinking of you and sending you a gentle hug if you will accept one. 💗

In response to: Darkness

Re: Darkness

he is taking all of his frustration out on me @Lee82 apparently he is selling his car (because it has a flat battery and just needs a new one) and a 100 other things that happened only god knows when in his lifetime.

im sitting having a cup of tea atm watching everyone loves Raymond.
I cant lay down because its to uncomfortable and ill just toss and turn all like last night. my muscles are actually really sore now from how much I kept tossing all night. and ive done a lot of walking with the horses already this morning.
I might see how I go, may end up going for a drive somewhere for a while

In response to: Darkness

Re: Darkness


@outlander wrote:
you can tag me anytime to talk and ill do my best to listen and help in anyway I can.

Thanks, that means a lot @outlander ❤

And yes please, I would like that hug, thank you @Lee82 ❤

In response to: Re: Darkness

Re: Darkness

@NatureLover

In response to: Darkness

Re: Darkness

@NatureLover , I am so sorry I haven't replied earlier the unconnected 16 yr old has been in the body for the last two hours or so.


@NatureLover wrote:

Thank you so much for asking Nikki, as I haven't been doing well the last 2 days. Terrible fears have been pounding at me all the time and it's been hard to function. I feel a bit better this morning though, and able to come back online and support people a little bit if possible. Thank you for saying you are thinking of me ❤ You are a beautiful person @Former-Member and I admire you so much.


I am so sorry it's been hard for you the last couple of days. In you other post I could hear your pain and that is sad. You have such a beautiful heart and a soul made for caring, I wish there was so I could say that could take it away for you my friend. Sending you squishy hugs from Kimmy and she said to have a bowl of ice cream it will make you better. 🥴 I am always ready to lean an ear if you want to chat. 💜Nikki

In response to: Darkness

Re: Darkness

@Lee82 and @outlander , I am sorry the unconnected 16 yr old has been out in the body for the past two hours or so. I am assuming she wrote it because I did. I am ok and safe.

Sending you both my love 💜Nikki

In response to: Re: Darkness

Re: Darkness

Thank you for your beautiful message, Nikki and Kimmy ❤ Please thank Kimmy for the squishy hugs which are great and made me smile 🙂 And the suggestion of ice cream - I don't have any ice cream but I have yummy rice cream which I will have a bowl of. I have been feeling stronger as the day has gone on, thank goodness, and the online support here has helped. ❤


@Former-Member wrote:

@NatureLover , I am so sorry I haven't replied earlier the unconnected 16 yr old has been in the body for the last two hours or so.


Oh my gosh @Former-Member - you are amazing, I don't know how you manage with all the alters. It must be difficult (I hope that is OK to say?)...but I can see it has been a necessary response for you, to survive. I am thankful you are there, Nikki.

In response to: Re: Darkness

Re: Darkness

Thanks for letting me know Nikki. How did your paint pouring go with your neighbour?
Love you always and forever ❤️ @Former-Member

In response to: Re: Darkness

Re: Darkness

How did th rest of your day go @outlander ?

thinking of you hun always 💜

In response to: Re: Darkness

Re: Darkness

So glad to hear you have been feeling stronger as the day goes on @NatureLover . I hope the night gets even better for you and you are able to get a really restful sleep. 💗💗

1,811 - 1,820 of 6,906