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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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glad it is now friday @Lee82

what a big bad week but all settled down now which is good xx

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That's good to hear @Shaz51 I'm glad things have settled down. What's on for your weekend?

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hoping to do nothing @Lee82 , how about you xx

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I also have nothing planned this weekend.
@Shaz51 my 9year old has a friend sleeping over tonight so we are just gonna watch kids movies and eat popcorn...lol

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Firstly thank you @Lee82 and @Former-Member for your kind support and words. We say I am 43 because I have been with Izzy for as long as she can remember. I was active as young, I protected her from her mothers abuse and neglect. I was her only friend when her big sister start school. I have protected her all her life only failing recently. So it feels like I am a failure, I know I have done and will continue to do all I can but you are both right. It's not easy sometimes to see the danger coming and yes Mel there has been a couple of times where my presence has made it a lot worse because I am a fighter. @Bunniekins , yes Izzy and I are ok, thank you for your concern. @NatureLover , no problem. You all have probably talked to us alters without knowing it. Only to about three people in the real world can actually recognise the change from Izzy to an alter. Izzy has just asked recently to make sure we let her family here know who they are talking to. I hope your day has been an easy one. @Shaz51 , sorry you have had a rough week but glad it has settle for you. We hope you and Mr Shaz have a nice weekend. @Former-Member , they will love the picture, I love the picture. Sounds like you really did have a busy day. I hope you can find some time to unwind tonight. @Lee82 , I have been busy all day doing stuff but Kimmy has kept me busy this afternoon. I told she couldn't talk to her friends here till after we talked to Nat and then she wanted to bake!!!! I will post a picture.

When you tell a five year old she has to wait to talk to her friends here!!!!

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Helo my Lee and Sherry, I missed you. I wanted to tak to you last night but Izzy no😞 I had fun with my hoes Ella. I was being very quite and whispered in her ear that she was beautiful and she turned her head and put it on my forehead. I got to walk her and Gail said I could paint her next time. Then Seannie took us to Izzy's favourite shop in the whole wide world The Store of Requirement it's all about Harry Potter. She wouldn't let me buy a pillow because she wanted a new purse. Mel and Sherry she didn't need a new one because she has so many alrea😞 I got him to take a photo so I could show you. I haven't done your butterfly yet sherry sorry😞 I haven not been aloof to paint yet. Thank you for being my friends. @Lee82 @Former-Member

Nikki helped a little to type this. Cause she is a bossy boots

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My sweet kimmy. I am so happy you had a nice time with the horses especially Ella. How you doing tonight gorgeous? I'm sorry you weren't able to buy your pillow perhaps next time. I am so glad you were able to take a photo of it though. Can't wait to see it when it loads properly.
sending you a gentle hug my princess.
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Nikki you have been there for Izzy for a very long time. You have pritrcgtf bet the best ghhb can and have been successful most if the tinder. You need to not punish you fresh sweets . I hope your can see that babe.
what rev kimmy trying to make?
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Heyyyy Kimmy ... so good to see you. And a big thank you to Nikki for helping with your message.

Actually Nikki posted a photo earlier from when you were cooking. What did you bake sweetpea?

I havent seen your other picture yet, but will come back later to see it. Please dont worry about not having done my butterfly picture yet. I am very happy to wait. And I know it will be worth the wait, because I already know you are a very talented little artist.

I am so happy that you got on so well with Ella. I would love to see a painting when you do one. So please try to remember to show your friends here. But there is no hurry.

Dont worry about Nikki being a bossy boots, I think thats fairly normal for people that are older than we are. Its usually a sign that they love and care for us.

Talk again soon Kimmy.

Sherry 😀💜🐴🐞🐎

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Wow that looks like an amazing shop kimmy!
I would love to have a shop like that here as I am also a Harry Potter fan.
who is your favourite character?
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