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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Nikki sorry about that last post. I'm sure you can't understand any of it. Was the beginning of a panic attack and I thought if I kept writing I could stop it from happening 😔

@Former-Member

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I am sorry everyone I am not in a good place right now. I have tried to stay on the forum and be there for others tonight but I am not coping. Hearing about how much of my friends are struggling is really heart breaking. I have had a couple panic attacks in a short space of Time and I have SH and SI thoughts right now. I am safe but I need to call someone. I will be signing off for now.
@Former-Member @Former-Member @Shaz51 @NatureLover @Pollyotter

Nikki I'm so sorry 💗

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I did wonder @Lee82 when I read your earlier post. I am really sorry to know how bad you are feeling and for the panic attacks. I have noticed you around several threads supporting others. And thats very commendable, and very much appreciated by those members. I know that.

I also acknowledge your fear that your access here could be affected. Actually I know that feeling very well 😞

If you feel you need to go offline, then thats fine. But please access offline help if you need it. You honestly do not need to go through any of this on your own.

And be assured that all your friends and many admirers here will still be here upon your return. Whether thats later tonight, tomorrow, next week, whenever.

Sherry 💕

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Good morning to @Former-Member @Former-Member @Lee82 @Shaz51 @NatureLover @MDT and all who follow. Wishing you a super weekend especially Kimmy, here is a present for you sweetheart.

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Hey all. Haven't been on this thread before but thanks for the tags pea @Bunniekins

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Hey there @Lee82 👋

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Good morning @MDT @Bunniekins @Former-Member @Shaz51 @NatureLover @Faith-and-Hope @Angels333 @Pollyotter @Zoe7 @outlander

and anyone else I missed.

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Good morning @Former-Member 💗💗

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G'day @Lee82
How's it going

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Not great @MDT what about you?
also welcome to the thread. Great to see you here!!

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